Having a bad day

We have all been where you are but things will improve as you learn the posture and practice it. There are many benefits to the posture as well as helping to stabilize your prolapse. I find walking in it makes me feel more feminine and confident and I can walk for miles without getting all winded as I used to do. It also helps when I get a bad case of heartburn.
When I first was diagnosed with prolapse, I cried a river of tears and hardly slept. Learning to relax is part of this work whether you just do deep breathing exercises or meditate. It makes you feel much better about yourself and other things. So my advise is sit in a comfortable chair and do some deep breathing, It will take some time but things will improve.
Take care.
Flora

hey tracey:

first of all, breathe. really. i mean it. BREATHE. a deep one. it will be okay. it will.

as i know all the other women here can probably attest to, we all have those days -- sometimes weeks -- of despair. when it all just feels really overwhelming and sad and just a big god damn bummer. it sounds like you were just diagnosed even though you say you've been having problems since the birth of your child so really, you just got here and are just dealing with hearing the actual word of prolapse. and the word can sound pretty funky (and NOT in a good way.)

here's what i can tell you. when i came here, not long ago at all, i was pretty freaked out and despondent. all the reading i found along conventional lines were grim and hell and i just KNEW i did not want to pursue any surgical routes to handle this. intuitively, it made no sense, along with something else a number of other women here have mentioned which is on one site that is pretty pro-surgery, each woman's tag line features many many surgical procedures -- repairs or repairs, repairs of new prolapses, mesh removals...it went on and on. i started to use the posture right away which i noticed was quite helpful. also got the dvd and book which had a lot of helpful stuff in it. i've made a bunch of diet changes and have been pretty open to alternative ways to go with this. perhaps i'm just stubborn as hell, but i honestly don't accept that surgery is a possibility for me and i truly believe that with christine's work, this can and will be managed just fine.

now, i have certainly had periods when things felt yuckier -- i have a rectocele and a slight cystocele. but lately, even if i AM aware of more of a bulge sometimes during the day, psychologically, something has, indeed, shifted and it just doesn't feel like that big of a deal to me. it's a structural things, that's really all. and with this work, i just firmly believe that it can be managed just fine -- in fact, far far easier than loads of other chronic issues many people have. not meaning to minimize this at all, but i have been feeling as though i have a better sense of the big picture with it these days. there have been a number of threads where women have written about how fear is really the biggest problem, not really the prolapse itself and i see that to be completely true for me. and right now, in the absence of the fear about the prolapse, i am finding my acceptance and -- dare i say -- almost forgetting of it is quite wonderful and makes it all just an ordinary part of me. a war wound to my body for the birth of my child and the living i have done in it. my new normal. and right now, that's okay with me.

know that your feelings of discomfort and fear will shift. they will. maybe not tomorrow, but they will. i can easily forget that what i'm feeling THIS SECOND is NOT how it will be forever -- that is just NEVER the case -- and that's with the good moments and well as the not good moments. it will pass. you will get to a more easeful place. but do know that you are so not alone and all of us here have been just where you are.

let me ask a few practical things...are you getting enough rest? the one really great thing that has come out of this for ME is that i have made getting enough sleep a priority for me again (after 7 years -- since my daughter was born!) and let me tell you, it has made a HUGE difference in the way i feel. when i don't get enough rest, i definitely feel it in terms of the prolapse. also, are you eating well, getting enough good quality food to give your body what it needs along with fiber? the posture, too, is HUGELY HUGELY beneficial -- can't say enough good things about the work christine has put together.

hang on, tracy. i can tell you it will be alright. and i am also really quite confident that you will start to feel better. why don't you put thoughts of a hysterectomy away for awhile. maybe give yourself 6 months, a year to try this work. you have nothing to lose (literally) and a lot to gain.

sending lots of love.

susan