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Thank you all for your kind words. I just feel so so sad thinking of my daughter's first two years of life. I felt like she was robbed of my full potential to be the best mom. I did what i could at the time with extra help. I just couldn't do the same as I did for my first two children. My sons were surrounded with love and support. It isn't suppose to turn out that way for her.

The onset of my prolapses after her 1st birthday was a huge challenge to me. I wasn't always patient and loving to them. Contributing to the stress was a failing marriage. My husband did not stand by my side through that ordeal. I don;t think my children knew that i am so much better physically now and I had wanted to make up for the tough times that we went through this year. I don't want them to remember those last times of me in the home as negative. I just miss everything about them when I am not with them. They are all trivial things that I took for granted and some I didn't have the strength to even deal with before. But I miss all that.

I know I didn't love myself after the prolapse happened like I should and that contributed to him not loving me. I couldn't be strong for the both of us then. But I am so much better now and he is taking this great chance away from me and my children. I am sad beyond belief.

Dear Mommi2three,

I also feel so sad for all that you are going through in relation to your marriage. I have followed your story through the forum and have seen you struggle and yet be so strong with all of this!

I too believe that if your husband could not be with you through such a traumatic time, then in the long run you will be better and stronger without him. I imagine though that right now it is incredibly painful.

I am thinking of you!

Michelle xxxx