Pedaled - now worse for wear...

Submitted by Blue on May 19, 2008 - 10:21pm
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Before my house of cards fell, I biked regularly, pedaling both stationary (upright) and on the road (MI weather permitting). After feeling pretty okay throughout the day today, with my prolapsed organs tucked comfortably just inside, and just as importantly, my prolapsed emotions tucked fairly neatly as well, I decided to hop on my stationary bike this evening. I had laid off from healthy aerobic exercise for far too long in my wallowing and figured it would do my body and mind some good to start breathing again. I pedaled for 30 vigorous minutes this evening. It felt so good... until I dismounted, that is. I came off the ride and while cooling down and trying on a bit of fire breathing and vacuum breathing (neither of which I think I have a handle on yet), I came away feeling that uncomfortable bulge that I was hoping I had felt the last of - and the weight of the ensuing fear of what my future holds (or fails to)....

It was such a relatively great day for a change and now here I am feeling mangled up in tangled up knots again. I am so frustrated and angry at myself for thinking I could step back into my good old healthy lifestyle (been gaining back my lost weight)... I should have left well enough alone, but I thought that as long as I stayed in posture (and I swore that I did) that all would be well. I've been itching to get my hybrid bike out on the paved trails with my DH and put a summer's worth of miles behind me again this year, but now I'm wondering if I'll have to hang up my helmet and stow both my dear bike(s) for good. *grrrr* (growling -an unspoken side effect of prolapsing?)

Here's hoping that this is just a temporary drop and not here to stay (or worsen); that I'll wake up in the morning, while obviously not cured (though I pray daily for that), at least be tucked back in. I would love for someone to share that such a dip can be chalked up as just the expected result of an active day, kind of par for the course, and not necessarily a sign that I need to cease and desist what brought it about... Wishful thinking?

Thanks for letting me vent -It helps. ((HUGS))
Heading to bed to sleep it off,
~♥Blue

louiseds

May 20, 2008 - 6:59am

Hi Blue

Sorry, can't help you on this, but try the Search box. We have discussed it a couple of times in the last few years, so there will be heaps of posts you can check out. Getting all the keywords will be the challenge.

Louise

alemama

May 20, 2008 - 7:43am

I have found that once my prolapse was stable I could do just about anything and it would return to normal within a week. don't give up the exercise. Swimming?

granolamom

May 20, 2008 - 9:23am

I can't say anything specific to biking, that's not my thing. but I can tell you that sometimes I overdo it and feel my prolapse after. It always goes back to baseline within a few days. you're still kinda new to this, so you haven't found that comfort zone yet, knowing how much you can take.

think of it like this....I know I can have a cookie or two and not gain any weight. but if I have too many cookies plus the chocolate my dd brought home from a birthday party and then go out to dinner and overeat the next day too, I will gain a pound or two. Its ok, I know a few days of no-snacks will bring me back to my baseline weight. BUT if I go back to my old diet - pizza, bagels, ice cream- I will gain weight and not lose it so fast.

and the closer I stick to a good diet, and the longer I maintain my weight, the more extra's I find I can tolerate.

don't even think of giving up exercise -especially if its your 'thing'- just yet. its good for you. maybe small doses for now until you get to know how much your prolapse can tolerate and your confidence will only grow when you see that you can stabilize the thing.

takes time though.

kay

May 20, 2008 - 10:17am

Hi alemama
Just wondering how you get to the stable part of this...I try to envision feeling back to normal again, running, and not always having the pinching sensation that I have...any advice?
Feeling a bit down...
Kay

Blue

May 20, 2008 - 9:04pm

Thank you again, gals. That's what I needed to hear, especially since I'm not there yet myself, comfort-wise _ Confirmation that there is kind of a yo-yo action that can take place depending on the day's activities, and that a hard day's drop and resulting irritation is just temporary rather than a sign of some pending avalanche... I don't want to quit moving and breathing.

I thought I read somewhere Christine's sharing that a prolapse could physically descend only so far (can't find that posting for the life of me now) - but mental images of those horrible internet photos I tripped across earlier haunt me when I'm at such a low point (supposedly staged, but still, can't shake 'em)

I think my prolapse retracted some since last night. I'm still feeling a bit irritated, though, and I think that alone messes with my perception of things by not allowing me a moment to forget, so I'm not real sure. Anyway, despite the irritation I walked for a half-hour on the treadmill tonight (3.5mph) sporting my best WW-posture... and am glad to report that I'm no worse for wear there, so perhaps tomorrow will find me back to how I was before yesterday's ride; back to my new old self.

Thank you for your continued support dear whole women; for being here when I feel like I'm being pulled under - You're life-savers. ((HUGS))

~♥Blue