Hernia, POP, knee issues = help

Hey Lauren, I just took the time to read over all your old posts here. It sure sounds like you have a great amount of injury and weakness in your body. Arthritis, hernia, ulcer, knee injury, old tailbone injury, degenerative disc disease, neck pain and pelvic organ prolapse. And all this pain and injury is wearing you down mentally and emotionally. What in the world is going on? It seems like your physical condition is just getting worse.
I hate that you are feeling so alone. It is so true that you can be surrounded by wonderful friends and family and still feel so alone.
It is wonderful that you are taking care of your hernia. I am wishing you a speedy recovery!
So, here's what I think: pain is one of the ways your body communicates with you. Often pain is your body's way of telling you to STOP to heal (like a broken bone) and sometimes pain means MOVE to heal (like your hand on a hot stove). It gets really complicated when there are many different types of pain and some want you to move and others want you to stop.
It seems like you feel a little bit trapped. From reading your old posts I get that you have been feeling this way for a while.
You say you feel better when you exercise. What else helps you feel better? Have you gotten your medications sorted out yet? What do you think about what you are eating right now? Do you feel like you are eating foods for healing? Local4ajar gave you some really interesting advice about foods and a website to check out. Judy sent you some information about Osteopathy and Cranio-sacral therapy. Have you explored those avenues? Have you ever considered meditation? and last, did you know that there are support groups for people who suffer with chronic pain? Maybe you wouldn't feel so alone if you could meet others with pain. I know it helps me.
It is really strange to sit and spin your wheels, feeling trapped and in pain. Prolapse seems to be the least of your problems (by the way, what do you think? are they the same, better or worse than they were a year ago? and have you fully embraced wholewoman posture?).
What do you think?

Hi Lauren

Maybe your husband has Aspergers. Maybe he doesn't. Husbands who are very worried about their beloved wife's health often act just like people with Aspergers. They turn right off. Any emotional connection brings up fear and insecurity so they just don't go there. They don't realise they are doing it. I am married to one of them, but he is much more normal if I don't keep my troubles hanging over me like a black cloud. It split our marriage a few years ago. We had a miracle, got back together and are much better now.

Beware depression in menopause. It might be worth your while going to a naturopath or herbalist for some herbs to address the weird hormonal stuff that is happening for you. Depression is a frequently experienced symptom of peri/menopause. I have found that black cohosh has made some difference for me. My mood is lighter since I have been using it. I am also drinking lots of red clover tea, but the black cohosh has made the mood difference. St John's Wort has not helped at all, either moodwise or painwise. Until I started the black cohosh I did not realise how dark I had been feeling for the previous few weeks. It was a great relief to feel it lessen, even just a bit. If I stop the black cohosh the black cloud may return, but at least I will know what it is, and be able to see it for what it is. Meanwhile, life is good.

Black cohosh may not be what you need but a professional will help you navigate your way through it.

yes it sounds like you have a variety of factors contributing to your depression- even one of the things you are dealing with could push someone over the edge and into the dark.
You can find a local chronic pain support group. They are wonderful. I happened into the best support yet at my local gym. I use the cold therapy pool there and wouldn't you know it, almost all the people who use it are in pain! We sit for 20 min at a time and chat and it is wonderful. Many of them are athletes and young but there is a good mix of age, gender, and pain levels.
I bet you would feel such a relief to just have someone to talk to. There are free crisis hotlines- national numbers too. They really are there for you. You can call and talk to them anytime and they will listen.
If you look in your local paper you can find support groups and therapy groups. Look in the Alcoholics Anonymous announcements section- it will be there.
With chronic pain comes chronic depression. You sound strong- I don't doubt you. I know that even the strongest woman can enjoy the benefits of support.
In my town churches have Friday night services, Saturday afternoon and Wednesday afternoon meetings. Call around- or use the internets to find out times etc....
I wouldn't attempt chelation for mercury poisoning with out the help of a professional. I recently (when we were in the hospital) talked with a nurse who was undergoing chelation. It was a very specific protocol- supervised by a physician. It was not covered by her insurance and it was expensive.
Mercury can contribute to depression too!
So, I'm saying, consider seeing some professionals......hope you start to feel better soon.

Lauren, you are a very strong woman and have come through so much. You are a survivor my friend and during challenging times such as yours know that you are not alone. I have suffered from depression for a long time and when you are physically hurting it can seem daunting and difficult to believe that things will get better. When I feel low I reach for the little things that make me feel good; the sound of rain, trees, smell of grass, birds chirping, a warm cup of tea. I know it will take time but set realistic goals for yourself because depression can knock you down. Write a letter to your pain. Expressing whatever emotions you have inside. Don't censor your letter because no one has to read it but you and you can always rip it up and toss it out. Get it all out. Lately, I do this meditation where I walk into an all white room and I lay down on a white table and ask God and the angels and my guides to heal me. I envision them laying there hands on my body where I am feeling pain and breath deeply into these areas. I feel myself being taken care of and I give them permission to heal me. It takes the burden off of me to release my hold on my pain because I know that I do make it worse with my worrying. Try it. You can make your healing room look like what ever you want. It's your room. I send you loving energy. Take Care.

Hey, I llie that meditation idea. Giving them permission to take the pain away. Mmmm ...