THANKS

Dear Nancy, Flora and Christine -- thank you so much for replying to me so quickly. I hadn't realised that so many women go through this and that has made me feel a bit better and your replies too. I won't lie and say that suddenly everything is now OK and I don't think that you would believe me if I did. I am still frightened and trying to let things I read on Christine's web site sink in and I guess that it will take quite a while before they do but I can't emphasise enough how glad I am that I found the site. It has been difficult enough trying to cope with my 'breakdown' without this happening to me. Also I was used to living on my own and had my own way of life and doing things so suddenly having to cope with my son living with me (even though he must have the patience of a Saint, especially as he was trying to fight his own demons as well) brought along a lot of problems which often ended in arguments and me in tears. By the way I thought that I would tell you that I didn't mean that I literally hadn't moved from the couch for nearly 4 years - what has tended to happen is that every now and then I go 'stir crazy'( being on there and in the same room 24 hours a day because I sleep on the couch too and my son sleeps in the same room with me on one of those blow-up mattresses because we were both waking up during the night with terrible panic atacks and fears so we decided it would be best if we were in the same room together so that we could comfort each other when this happened) - what happens is that every now and again I have got up and painted and decorated the house or done the garden which had been badly neglected but since I'm the sort of person who doesn't seem to know when to stop, I've overdone things and brought the prolapse down even further because I've strained carrying heavy plant pots, etc. then I race back to my couch and won't dare move again for a few weeks (my son says that I bring things onto myself and that I am my own worst enemy and I cannot argue with that). I'm looking forward to getting Christine's video and living a life again (something I'm afraid I haven't been doing for the past 4 years. )Thank you all so much again for reassuring me and I look forward to more chats with you all as time goes on.Bright Blessings, Shirley