profound moment

Submitted by bad_mirror on December 5, 2011 - 10:48pm
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Today, I went Christmas shopping. I realized that nearly three years ago exactly, I was Christmas shopping in the same store, taking a breastfeeding break with a small baby in the same spot. But three years ago, I had just discovered my cystocele, and the outing that was to make a delicious Christmas preparation with my new baby was clouded with uncertainty and terror. Back then, I was afraid of how this prolapse would change my life. I was afraid of sex, of exercise, of driving, of sitting, of standing, of cooking, of laundry, of lifting and wearing my baby, of how it would affect my ability to make a living, of having more babies. I realized today that not a single fear has played out, and I cried with joy -- sex is great, I walk and jump and lift and dance, I wear my baby for several hours a day, I cook and sit and stand with ease, I do plenty of laundry (cloth diapers!!), and I just accepted a seasonal job at a nearby hospital. I had another baby. In my living room, without incident. I completed nursing school. I do everything and anything I ever wanted to do. Yes, at about four months postpartum, my cystocele is *right there*. But it doesn't bother me at all. I am not afraid of it. I *know* it is bound to improve just like after the last baby. Same situation today, vastly different outlook on life. It has taken me three years, several life challenges, and another pregnancy to get to this head space, but I am thrilled to be here at last. Thank you, Whole Woman.

oh_mum

December 19, 2011 - 6:57am

It is amazing how being in a better frame of mind has eased my pop systems this time postpartum! Thank you ladies of the forum!

Christine

December 19, 2011 - 11:30am

Thank you BadMirror, Amel, Kiko and all the others who have posted success stories in recent days. I have read them, but am just buried here and have not been able to respond. That is Lanny, btw, who has been on under my "administrator" username for hours on end trying to work the forum bugs out.

I am on cloud nine myself. I've been using honey vaginally (yes - a bit messy, but amazing!!) for my post-menopausal symptoms and doing lots of Whole Woman Breath of Fire/nauli and I believe there is actually a possibility of totally anteverting this old, prolapsed uterus of mine. :D

It may be a new era for WW too! We have applied for a HUGE grant to help educate women about their true anatomy and the true nature of prolapse. WW has attracted some notable "eyes" because of all of YOU believing in and doing the work. Please keep your fingers crossed.

The holidays (Holy Days) are upon us. I spent last night embroidering a holiday shirt for my granddaughter and have a million chores to do - as I'm sure you do as well. We are making most of our Christmas presents this year.

Lots of love...I will be checking in as often as I can.

Christine

Surviving60

December 19, 2011 - 11:44am

I would like to add my thanks and good wishes to all the wonderful women here. You have turned my life around! Albuquerque in May is my dream right now.....only time will tell if I can pull it off. Such exciting news from Christine. First that you are on the upswing, as I recall recently you were going through a bad time. And second, best of luck obtaining your grant. If any of us can help by writing any letters on your behalf, I am sure you will let us know! Happy holidays to all - Surviving

Daphne

December 19, 2011 - 12:17pm

Hi Christine,
What does the Honey do that puts you on cloud 9?
Wishing Everyone Happy Holidays.
Daphne.

Christine

December 19, 2011 - 9:17pm

Well, some time ago we were discussing how severe post-menopausal "vaginal dryness" can become. For me it is a corrosive internal and external condition that becomes very itchy and painful. One of the primary causes is loss of estradiol and the resultant change in vaginal and vulva pH from acidic to slightly alkaline. Estradiol prompts the vagina to produce glycogen, which attracts and feeds beneficial lactobacilli from the environment. At some point, I believe it was BadMirror, suggested that honey produces glycogen. I tried it once and it was such a mess I didn't do it again until recently. I've found it only takes a tiny bit twice a day and those symptoms significantly abate. "Cloud 9" might have been a bit of an overstatement - lol - but it is amazing to deeply grasp that you are in control of your symptoms for the long-run. :)

blissedout

December 21, 2011 - 12:00pm

Is this manuka honey and if so what strength?
Still waiting for replies from women who have had rectocele surgery too!

good wishes

Daphne

December 21, 2011 - 12:53pm

Hi Christine,
I don't have the itching but do find myself to be very dry these days so it is worth a try. I was hoping that you were going to say it helped, in some way, to keep the Uterus up rather than down. Would it make the Uterus slide down quicker?
I still keep trying to be patient with this problem as you have such success with yours but mine does seem to be coming outside of me more times in a day than before. I am still doing the Ballet exercises, first set without baton and do the Fire breathing as part of my other exercises.
Could you tell me how to get to read the "Success stories" I looked the other day but couldn't find a Heading for it.
Keep "Up" the good work, Pun intended.
Daphne

Christine

December 21, 2011 - 1:15pm

I just use local honey, Blissedout. Are you seeing any improvement at all? I thought of you when I posted about WW Breath of Fire.

Daphne...the honey mostly helps with skin issues, but I have wondered if it has contributed a bit to improving my prolapse.

Do you do any of the floor exercises - like firebreathing or pelvic circles on all fours? These are very helpful. I like to think we have a good variety of movements for women to choose a favorite or two. My magic combination is WW Breath of Fire (which I recently described in another post - use the search function) and nauli. But I just finished a class where we were doing the other spinal exercises that I also love. I hope you find something that works for you as well!

The Long-Standing Members Success Stories are located in the second to the last forum.

Christine