post partum how bad was your cystocele? mine is out of the labia now:(

Body: 

I am almost 4 wks postpartum (3rd baby) and I shouldn't have felt down there but my bladder bulge is exposed - just peeking out from my labia. Was always right at the introitus before this delivery. This bothers me bc I don't want it exposed to the air and I am now trying to wear my V-2 that had gotten too tight in the third trimester to keep it in. Have posted a little (Thanks Christine for the response - am trying to do the posture while nursing - lots of pillows for my long torso.) Has anyone had a cystocele this bad and seen improvement? Just needing some encouragement. Have had the prolapses almost 3 years (after my 2nd) and felt they were manageable - haven't posted much but I have been following the site and had the 1st aid video this whole time. Also I am beating myself up for pushing too hard in the second stage of labor. Was planning on breathing the baby down and then the midwife and nurse kept coaching and it was going very slowly with the breathing down - the midwife kept saying she could tell I wasn't really pushing. Anyway I ended up pushing my 10lb 3oz baby out too hard and now I feel like my bladder is forever damaged. Feels like my vagina is caving in. My 2nd degree tear also feels like a big blobby lumpy mess. Still I keep looking at my little boy and am so glad I have him. Thankful that this is not a life threatening problem that I have. Thanks for all the posts out there - they really do help! My rectocele is bad too but probably can't come down any farther due to the bladder.

Mopsy, 4 weeks PP is still early, so give yourself some time and don't be too worried. Keep with WW work as diligently as you can, things will improve. A cystocele peeking out at 4 weeks PP is very common and from what I've read on here, the changes at this point are all over the map. Just do your best and assume any and all setbacks are temporary.

Hi Mops

Read my post to Sealove about recovering from pregnancy and birth. You just have to hang in for a few months to let your body catch up. Don't blame yourself for this. It is just the process you are in. It is hard, I know. Try not to compare yourself to others. This is your body. It will get better. It just takes time.

I can see that you have a positive attitude underneath your pain. This will get you through. Just love that baby. Keep tall. Keep posting.

Louise

Thanks louiseds and surviving 60. I read the post to Sealove and it was very helpful. Thanks so much. Having a hard time believing that my body is going to improve but I do need to give it time and take care of myself. I do feel more positive about things in general when I stay in the posture. Thanks!

Great posts to sealove. For a pp woman like me, I really need these encouraging posts! Thx ladies!

How can I find this wonderful post?

Congratulations on the birth of your son. No point in beating yourself up. You were in an intimidating circumstance. Fortunately you have WW posture, exercise and advice to keep things from getting worse. Sounds like maybe you're already experienced in how you might handle such a big boy without putting physical stress on yourself. On the brighter side, my arms were never so beautifully toned as they were in the first several months of my own big boy's life.

Just wanted to say I enjoyed following this post (all the way to Sealove, which I found easily just by searching "sealove") and will add my encouragement that life is far from over. Finding this online sisterhood has given me a bounce.