another health scare

Hi Ikam – I’m sure everything will work out fine for you. I’ve got a lumpy thigh too, so let me know what you find out! And what is a referral for USG? - Surviving

PS - I found this on a medical website: "Very commonly, trauma to a muscle can produce a small hematoma (blood collection) that subsequently calcifies and causes a lump. Often the inciting event is unnoticed." I figure that's what I have, nothing much to be concerned about.

Dear Ikam,

Thanks for the update.

Just to let you know I will be thinking of you and hoping for the very best. I kept getting the feeling from time to time from some of your posts that you were worried about cancer. Let’s hope that the lump is benign and that your worry was constructive so that you checked it out, and even if it is not, that you have acted in time and all will still be well.

Hey, doctors are good in most of their fields. They just have not got it quite right with woman’s mysterious pelvic organs when they prolapse.

When it comes to possible cancer I cannot think of anywhere better to go. Whichever way it goes, I know you will be OK. And you won't let us down.

Being scared is good. It’s a reasonable emotion and it has motivated you to fix things up.

Love Fab

Thanks Ikam for another update. I was so hoping it would turn out to be less complicated than all this. We are all thinking of you and hoping for the best outcome. And I hope they don't keep you waiting too long for these results. Sorry to hear about you and your husband. What would any of us do without friends? Love and hugs - Surviving

Hi Ikam,

I join the others in sending my hope for a good outcome. Perhaps another opinion is in order? So many of us have "lipomas", or lumps in the fat layer. Who knows...my thought is that they stem from all the margarine we ate as kids, which the body is not set up to metabolize naturally. However, these virtually never turn malignant. The body just holds onto them forever. If the lump is in the muscle layer, that's another matter. Who knows again...maybe a molecule of radioactive cesium (which seeks muscle tissue) from nuclear fallout gets incorporated into the muscle and causes havoc in surrounding cells. Something like that is operable tho.

Please never forget the mind-body connection! Surely we manifest, and therefore can un-manifest, many of our own ails!

Hugs from Christine

Hi Christine,

I have 3 lipomas. They are rather unsightly but benign. The oldest (and largest) is just above my right knee, then I have another smaller one in my right upper arm, and a third (newest), just behind my left knee joint. I don't believe anybody knows what actually causes them. I have a feeling they may be genetic, but who knows. Apart from not being particularly beautiful, they've never caused me any kind of problem.

Ikam,

I wish you the best of all outcomes and will keep my fingers crossed for you.

sevilla

Just want to send you my very best wishes. You have my prayers and much love. I will be watching for your updates here. Funny how this special site creates friends across the continents and many feelings of love and good wishes. You have many sisters here.

How is it going?

Hope the outcome is better than expected Ikam.
How wonderful to hear you talk about nature with such enthusiasm, sometimes I feel that is the only place where things make sense, amongst nature.
Family often hurt you more than anyone ... but you have to find your own inner strength.
When things get too tough I try to find a blessing in a situation - hard as it may seem, there is always a blessing.
Very best wishes
xxx

Will be thinking of you and sending prayers.

Best wishes to you Ikam, take care of yourself. It doesn't sound like anyone is rushing you into surgery, which has got to be a good sign. I hope that you can try to eat better and if you stay in posture, then you shouldn't have too much of a prolapse setback even if you just can't exercise right now. I've been off my walking routine for a few days now, but I'm never off my posture! Keep us posted, relax and enjoy the rest of your stay abroad, and send us updates! Hugs and love - Surviving

Sorry to hear this news, but better now than later, I suppose.

You really do have good reason now for nurturing yourself and treating your body well. I hope you get a second and third opinion as to the next steps, and don't just cave in to the certainty of surgery immediately.

The situation with your husband will certainly not be helping, but at least you know where you stand now, and can move forwards.

Breathe.

Louise

Thoughts and prayers for you Ikam. Stay strong!

Very wise Ikam

Time and patience and knowledge is best and then is time of course for decisions and action.

The following (bitter, sweet) is just something I read today, I thought you might like.

Love seeketh not itself to please,
Nor for itself hath any care,
But for another gives its ease,
And builds a Heaven in Hell's despair.

Love seeketh only self to please,
To bind another to its delight,
Joys in another's loss of ease,
And builds a Hell in Heaven's despite.

Songs of Experience, William Black

That should have been William Blake

I think we need more poetry on this forum! Nice, thanx Fab.

Ikam, it seems like a good sign that they do not seem in a big hurry to operate. Being back to work may help by giving you something else to focus on for part of your day. I wish you the best - Surviving

Please know that you have many sisters here who are thinking of you, praying for you and sending you much love.

Good luck tomorrow, and just know that we will all be with you while you are there. We are here for you!

I hope everything's well.

Ikam, what the heck are these doctors doing? I thought from your posts that you had a biopsy a weeks ago. Did everything start all over again when they switched hospitals on you? So sorry for what you are going through, all the waiting and waiting.... - surviving

Hi Ikam... I can underastand your situation we are thiking about u hope u get speedy recovery without any traces of illness Ameen..... Do some concentration yoga with deepbreaths closed eyes and think of being in a green grass with lots of beautiful trees flowering and fruiting every thing with in ur reach and enjoying flying Aah its so good to be in out open space green Grass and Bluesky..

Hug and love to you :)

Sorry Ikam that they keep delaying and delaying. But maybe that's a good sign. And it's amazing that your rectocele is behaving, you must be doing a lot of things right these days! Keep strong - Surviving

Hi Ikam,
Congratulations on your success with prolapse symptoms.
Thinking of you & sending love & strength for a speedy recovery.
Best wishes
(((hugs)))
Aussie Soul Sister

Oh my gosh Ikam, so happy for you, so relieved. Today is "the first day of the rest of your life"!! Keep us posted here! Happy happy happy. - Surviving

Hope your surgery is smooth sailing

Ikam and courage. Will be nice to have you back. Which of the poems you read in the book you mentioned were most meaningful?

I am so happy to hear this! Yes, you have been enormously strong. Good news and yes, your new life coming! Love and Best Wishes.

My best wishes too!
We are often at so much mercy to the medical profession and all the tests and interpretation of those tests. I remember finding a lump in my breast about 20 years ago. It immediately scared the daylights out of me. Then there were all the "tests' which went from one test to the next and finally a biopsy of the lump. It took forever - or so it seemed for the results- benign. Thank goodness. However, I think I stressed more and aged more as a consequence of all the testing, waiting and worrying.
I read with interest the blog in Feb this year about dispelling myths regarding mammograms. I could relate to what was written.
The bottom line is that we are far better having as healthy a diet as we can manage, keep up the exercise and we can lessen the chances of all kinds of issues. So I gave up the monthly breast checks women are advised to do after my scare so long ago now. It seemed that as women we were given a life sentence from the time we grow breasts, to always keep checking them and at the end of the day, I think more women have been tramatized than have had years of quality life added.

Wonderful news dear Ikam,
Sending love & best wishes for the surgery & speedy recovery.
(((hugs)))
Aussie Soul Sis

What a clever, knowing author and reader

Ikam, that is wonderful news. What a relief! Best wishes for your surgery. Doctors and surgery can be very useful. ;-)

Gardengirl, out of curiosity, what was the longer term outcome of your breast lump. Did you have it removed?

Louise

Louise, I left the lump alone after all that. I don't even go bother looking for it any more. It just seems like the medical profession is always wanting people to go looking for bad news. We are told to have this test done or that and we could spend a lot of time and money on having all the tests done.

I did my degree in health promotion because I wanted to help people to be healthier. Sadly, I discovered that there are few jobs in that field and lower pay. Most of the jobs go to finding and fixing the problems after the fact.
I know that the medical profession does do some fantastic things and we would not be without them but I suspect our health dollars would get a much better outcome if we prevented problems in the first place. But sadly, I have become quite cynical-" you can lead a horse to water but you cannot make it drink". So for all the well meaning health programs and information, at the end of the day, people make their own choices and will possibly have to endure the consequences.

And I would add that I am also guilty at times of making poor lifestyle choices and I should know better!

Di