New here and feel desperate

Dear WW ladies,

This is my first time writing here, although I am not new to the Whole Woman work. I found this site over a year ago, after entering menopause and having my almost thirty-year prolapse symptoms all of the sudden worsen.
I am 58, have 4 grown up children, all born around 8-9 pounds, all vaginal births with episiotomy.
I noticed my first prolapse symptoms after my second son was born, but my OB/GYN did not take me seriously. I was told to do kegels and not bother about it. I had so little knowledge back then…
Over the years my symptoms (dropped bladder, small bulge descending to the entrance of the vagina just before my period) were rather steady, but then I entered menopause, at 56, and things started to exacerbate. I have a HUGE bulge hanging down, and was diagnosed by my current OB/GYN as having a severe cystocele and also uterine prolapse, and sure enough was told that surgery is my only option.
I have always led a healthy lifestyle. I am not overweight, and have been vegetarian and then vegan for the last forty years. I lead a life as close to natural as possible when living in the city. I do not opt for surgery, I do believe with all my heart that I can at least live with my prolapse, hopefully preventing it from getting even worse, doing the WW work.
I keep my vegan diet, take my supplements (multivitamin, magnesium, vitamin D, vitamin B12, probiotics), and get acupuncture to try and support my tissues. But I know that unless I do the WW work, things will not stabilize…
I have Christine’s book and the First Aid for Prolapse DVD. I started working on the posture over a year ago, but then kind of neglected the work for a while… (BIG MISTAKE!) I must admit that maybe I was not serious enough, at first, doing the WW work. I kept trying to stand and walk in posture, doing firebreating and jiggling before straightening into WW posture, but I thought maybe things would not worsen, and so was not too diligent about it.
Well, things have gotten even worse… My bulge is huge, making it uncomfortable to stand and walk these past days.
I bend forward several times a day, jiggle and firebreathe, I try to keep in posture, but I feel so desperate right now… Just rising from my chair makes my bulge get out in seconds. I read through the forums for weeks, and understand that since my prolapse is so profound, I must have it tucked in before I start firebreathing and then straightening up into WW posture. However, once I start to get up from my bending position, things go out again.
I feel very lonely in this, and hope that you, dear ladies, could offer some encouragement. My dear husband is so loving and supporting, but I do need your kindness and support.
How do I know I am doing this right? When I firebreathe, after tucking things in and juggling, I do not feel anything going forward… Could I be doing it wrong? When I stand in WW posture, I sometimes feel as if things get a little better down there, but then I check and it is still out there… How come I feel some relief then?
Sorry for this so very long post. It took me days to get the courage to write this down…

Avena Sativa