I know this too well

Submitted by PelProlapse_Free on April 28, 2017 - 6:15pm
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Hello again,

I currently suffer from depression, anxiety and post traumatic syndrome.If you've read any if my posts, then you know I've been and AM going through it.

Before I got married, I had a job...and it felt great to be productive and to help contribute to our finances. Four months after the wedding, i had to leave said job....due to being harrassed. To this day, my marriage nor I have recovered from that. Traumatic situations seem to plague my life...which only sinks me deeper into depression.

I started literally losing myself as time went on. Forgetfullnes and brain fog were and are my best friends. Intimacy suffered drastically. Hubby and I fought like crazy. Whatever job i got further damaged my psyche. Divorce got thrown around all the time cuz i felt like a loser...a failure! I didnt want to be KEPT in a marriage. I wanted to b at the top of my game...not having my hubby escort me to a fro in our home. I was SOOOOO and still am embarrassed. I left my fam to relocate....so i dont have anyone here i can truly turn to. Things with in laws arent great.....especially learning mom in law had been bad mouthing me to my hubby for most if our marriage.

Due to PCOS...thought i was infertile till a doc visit revealed otherwise...SIX months in pregnany! Didnt take news well at all...Had very bad post partum during birth and few montjs later. Happy to say it's pretty much gone. Have my momments of feeling overwhelmed.

Now baby has her own med problems...dont want her to end up like me.

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PelProlapse_Free

April 28, 2017 - 8:58pm

Yes, I have anterior/posterior rectocele, pelvic prolapse and intussusception.

I'm in counseling...forgot to mention that. Have been
for the last few years. Hubby and I had marriage counseling for a period....but need to start it up again. We both suffer from Depression....raising a baby...with issues. U better believe we need prayer,love and counsel.

mummyduck13

April 29, 2017 - 3:42am

Hi, I have read your posts and it is clear you have a lot to cope with. Have you started the whole woman work to help your prolapse? I have only been doing it for a few months but it is definitely the way forward. I too have many other health challenges but I'm finding meditation and get extremely useful. There are many free meditations available online and I'm happy to point you in the direction of some to try if you are interested . Eft is very helpful for depression and anxiety. I suffered from anxiety and panic attacks but have found a way through with eft. The biggest lesson I'm having to learn in order to heal is to put myself first, at least some of the time. The medical profession has freely said they have nothing to offer me, which is leading me down a path of self healing. It is at times very scary and also empowering. I have two children who both have health challenges. I initially blamed myself but I'm slowly realising it's not my fault and I can help them solve their challenges. . If you want to know more about meditation , eft and self healing I would be happy to tell you. I wish you the best of luck and hope you find solutions to your problems.

PelProlapse_Free

April 29, 2017 - 5:31pm

I'd LOVE to incorporate the WW way of healing. I started browsing the video section to learn about posture but I couldn't find it. Maybe I'm looking in the wrong place. If it's one of those videos for sale, then I won't be able to offered that. I need A Lot of help here. I have so many anatomical problems and I fear I won't be able to fully heal. I can't afford to see the various specialist needed to receive the necessary treatments. From Sciatica,Pelvis Prolapse, Subluxation, Intuss, Anterior/Posterior Rectocele...how on earth am I supposed to heal internally? Are there any foods/treatments that I can incorporate in my life that won't be counter-productive?

Thanks!

mummyduck13

April 30, 2017 - 4:27am

Hi, the best way to learn the posture is from the book or a DVD. I found the fundamentals one very helpful. However, I appreciate the. It's involved. If you type mummyduck13 into the search and read the post new to all of this , you will see all the suggestions I received when I was starting. It will certainly give you something to start on. There are many other posts where the basic principles are explained. Meditation and eft would help all of your health problems alongside the posture and they are free.

Surviving60

April 30, 2017 - 5:00am

I do need to step in here, with a reminder that PelProlapse_Free has many health problems, including back issues and a complicated surgical history that includes multiple rectocele repairs and hysterectomy. The only one really qualified to advise her would be Christine. At the very least she would need to proceed with caution and have realistic expectations about what kind of progress might result.

PelProlapse_Free, what happens when you get down on hands and knees, and breathe gently into a relaxed belly? Is this painful or does it feel good? Does it give relief from prolapse discomfort? The combination of hysterectomy, and a failed rectocele repair followed by another, may not leave you with enough tissue for the vaginal canal to be able to flatten out and hold off the intrusion of the rectocele bulge. Every surgery compromises this a little more.

Again I would make the suggestion to book a consult with Christine and be prepared to give details about the procedures you have had. I know that you came on here looking for help in talking the docs into performing rectopexy. It seems at least you have changed your mind about that, which is a good thing. - Surviving

PelProlapse_Free

April 30, 2017 - 2:50pm

I appreciate your advice.

Whatever Regimen I choose to heal my many problems, it needs to be free or next to it. In the mist of reading prev. posts about posture, food and other suggestions.

I am in counseling to try and handle all of this. So much outside of health issues have had traumatic effects on my life. For one, I was stalked as a teen. Thank God nothing happened physically but the emotional/mental effects are still felt. My mental state is nowhere near what it was when I met or married my Husband. Ladies, I'm only 40 and I space out and forget the most embarrassing things...like names of basic objects: phone...fridge...remote..etc. I once got lost in a familiar place, making me 30 min for an appointment. I didn't know I was preggy till 26 wks in the term. I blame myself for baby's problems. She was born with some abnormalities...some that will.probably affect her for life. Her 1st year was in and out of doc appts. I would've had to leave my job if I had one.