New and scared. Emerm

Thanks so much Surviving. Yes I did read that post and have looked at some of the info on here but will go back and look at the posture details. I guess I am still praying in some way diagnosis is not the correct one when I go for MRI on Tuesday. As at least with prolapse there are some roadmaps. If I was someone who jumped at option of surgery I probably would be happier as if its diagnosed as uretheral diverticulum surgery is really only option offered. But even the medics are reluctant to do it as its quite risky and not always successful. So you can imagine if they are reluctant what that says about it. From reading more about it in last few days there are cases where it can be left alone and it does not worsen. Mine seems to be very symptomatic and moving fast at moment. But I have taken back my power a bit in last few days and am back doing pelvic release exercises and I know the dietary changes that have been suggested to me for my bladder and bowel would really help if I could implement them! The pelvic pain is really not great as the day wears on and it almost feels as if the bit protruding is really sore and inflamed. But when I check it as I do too regularly it doesnt look any worse but it does feel swollen to touch. Apologies if this is too much information. Its so distressing and so worrying if I think too far ahead as I dont know what solutions I can bring to it. I wont be back with physio until I have MRI and know what I am dealing with. But at the end of the day I still have to find a way to manage and even believe it can improve. I cannot envisage myself going down the surgery route, waiting as a public patient and having bladder test which is quite invasive and then the ordeal of surgery and the cathether put in afterwards and the risk of incontinence and again risk of recurrence. All worst case scenarios and I have to be balanced if I can be. As if its a really practical choice that I am left with that does not interfere with my pelvic organs necessarily and is different than prolapse type surgery it might be the sensible thing. I totally respect this forum is all about non surgical options which is why I am on here. Anyone who knows me knows how much I work with the emotional and the reasons why things manifest in the body (I am a psychotherapist) However when you are caught in the fear and the pain and the visibility and terror if it moving more and more out of the vagina - you lost your good emotional reasoning but thankfully it comes back and thankfully I will be guided to right options. So again any thoughts or feedback gratefully appreciated. I am not anti surgery or I suppose I am pro choice so this is just me talking about myself and how I have always been up to now. Some would accuse me in the past of being extreme in my refusal to take painkillers over the years and always opt for non medical interventions in the case of other issues I have had. So this is a real challenge for me . Thank for reading and again in my gut I know the diet if I could do it get rid of the coffee alcohol and sugar and wheat which I dont have in large amounts but over a week they are always in the diet most days.

Hi Surviving and thanks again for response I had my MRI on Tuesday and it was such an unpleasant experience but glad its done Will have results in next few days hopefully. I will assess all options then. I have to say that my experiences with my pelvic health therapist has been nothing but positive. She never had me doing kegels as my issue all along was hypertonic pelvic floor so she was always working with me on internal release and breathing work that opened up the pelvis. She gave me hope and care lots of times when I was so low. Unfortunately it has just deteriorated where at this stage because of this possible diagnosis we are both waiting to hear what consultant has to say - no choice really and then to make an informed decision. but its tough and painful and am doing my best to stay focussed and proactive.