Thank you, each of you...

Submitted by kit on January 28, 2008 - 6:55am
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Perhaps some are not meant to play in the larger playgrounds of life. Even the ones like this that teach so many wonderful and valuable ways to climb. I have learned much here and I am standing on the top of the slide, hanging firmly to the handles thanks to the strength of knowledge and compassion I have gained from all of you. I realize that it will inevitably become my turn to slide down, at times, but I also realize that this is part of life and my ladder up will always be right there waiting just a few steps away. Our ladders are always waiting. There is much to find at the bottom, though, much to gather and take back up to the top. So I will not fear life’s ups and downs. I hope you don’t either.

I have become far too attached to some of you. How could I help myself? You are so open and honest and vulnerable and giving. So very many of you stay so close to my heart now. I am finding it more and more difficult to not worry about you too much. I realize that this is a price of love, and I unashamedly say that I do feel a deep caring love for many of you even though I would not know you on the street. But I must get on with life and face more fully what I feel I am called to do. We all have our callings. Some are as simple as being open and available to others. Those of you who have that, here, and share it so freely, bless you. You cannot know the good you do.

If I were psychic, I would look into my crystal ball and find your healing. If I had deep spiritual powers, I would call upon them to shower you with health and happiness. But I am just a weak, imperfect mortal with only a heart to share. That you have.

I know you will continue to care for each other in that miraculous way you do. So I will work to not worry, as I know you have each other. I hope some of you will think of me, at times, and send me good thoughts. I would love to feel that from time to time. You just can't underestimate the power of support. We all thrive from it.

I will miss you. Thank you for all you have given me. I will not forget. Love, Kit

louiseds

January 28, 2008 - 7:14am

Go safely Kit, and please call back a couple of times a year at least, to let us how you are going. It is so hard to know what happens in the longer term with POP if women don't call back with their progress. The research on long term results would be so hard to do, and who would fund it? The results of this work need to be passed from woman to woman.

It can be a heavy load when we get involved deeply in the lives of others. I can understand your pulling back. We will miss your beautiful poems and your kind words.

Take care

Louise

MeMyselfAndI

January 28, 2008 - 7:33am

I will miss you

x x x x x

Sue

Look into the eyes - They hold the key...
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ATS

January 28, 2008 - 7:44am

I shall miss you and wished you wouldn't go. Please keep checking back from time to time to let us know how you are. I do hope that your recent efforts are not the reason for your departure.

I feel a loss.

Take care,

Anita

mommynow

January 28, 2008 - 8:03am

Okay I feel like I am out of the loop. Why are you leaving?? I wish you wouldn't :(

granolamom

January 28, 2008 - 9:33am

you know you've touched me and claimed a bit of my being (like everyone else who posts here regularly). If you need to step back, get on with other things, I understand that and wish you only the best. I'm not sure though why you feel the need to leave with such permanence, I hope it wasn't anything any of us has said. And forgive me, but the imagine of letting go of the railings to drop down the slide scares me a bit. I do hope you are ok.
pop in every now and then if you find that you can. we will miss you.

a6a25725

January 28, 2008 - 10:25am

I too will miss your beautiful poems and how they express in words a lot of my feelings. Take care
and much love to you and wishes for great success in all your endeavors.
Flora

Christine

January 28, 2008 - 10:53am

Kit…the forum is here for you and I hope someday when you are feeling positive again that you will check back in with us. You will be sorely missed in the meantime. Many blessings, Christine

alemama

January 28, 2008 - 12:01pm

I think I must be addicted to this forum cause I could never go.....but I do from time to time take a break. And sometimes for weeks I just read a little here and there. If you think of us check in. we will miss you.

ATS

January 28, 2008 - 1:06pm

I was worried after reading Kit's e-mail and contacted her and she has replied. She is in a very happy place and now that she is physically stronger she has so many hobbies awaiting her that she cannot wait to get started. Her goodbye was intended as upbeat and she doesn't want anyone to think she is hurting in any way.

She came to care for us all very deeply but life is taking her in a different direction now.

I feel very sad to lose her here but wish her well and maybe just maybe she might come back one day and check in on us. I hope so anyway. I wish it could have been a 'see you later' instead of 'goodbye'.

Anita

goldfinch1

January 28, 2008 - 4:34pm

I will miss you here. Your poetry, your depth of emotion balanced out my black and white, facts and figures way of looking at things. I wish you much happiness and success with whatever you do, and also with your POP now and in the future. Please let us know how you are doing. Thinking of you often..... Goldfinch

Zelda

January 28, 2008 - 5:50pm

I guess we all have to find boundaries in whatever way we can.
I've had similar thoughts of caring deeply and distress when reading
painful posts... But in my mind I know we all take turns offering
bits of solace here and it's not my responsibility to caretake you all so
I often just send a little blessing in my mind to whoever is hurting.
And even when my rants get no response I know how much I've read
that I never had time to respond to...
I'm way too greedy for all the gems around here anyways.
The give and take here is entirely too precious to give up. Not to say
this is Kit's reality , but if I did that ? it would be masochistic indeed.
Zelda

alemama

January 28, 2008 - 7:20pm

you start to notice a pattern. and then it isn't so disconcerting to hear heartbreak- because you know it is just part of the process.

granolamom

January 28, 2008 - 8:53pm

so true alemama!

Zelda

January 28, 2008 - 9:44pm

I've been trying to catch up on ALL the recent posts.
It's making me so sad.
Kit ! I'll miss you so.....SO very much. I wanna "keep" you always !
What a tender, genuine, dearheart you are.
Love,
Zelda