Please help me - am I going crazy???

Submitted by mytfly2day on February 7, 2008 - 5:55pm
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Just typed out a whole long post and lost it. Grrrrrr.

Went to a urogyn today who is ranked one of the top docs in the country for women. After feeling around quite a bit, he concurred with my nurse-practitioner and my urologist . . . NO SIGNIFICANT PROLAPSE. He said my cervix is not moving when I bear down and that my bladder and urethra are in place. He said I have a "weak area" posterior but didn't even classify it as a rectocele. I asked if that could be pushing against my urethra and he said no way, it's not even in the same area. He does think Kegels will help with this particular problem.

I should be jumping for joy, shouldn't I? Except . . . I am still in pain and don't know why! He thinks that perhaps it is the urethral syndrome flaring up and has put me on a low dose antibiotic for a few weeks. I have this pinching/burning/irriated feeling only in my urethra. He said the catheter I had during the D&C could DEFINITELY have precipitated an attack of the urethral syndrome. As I've said before, catheters are instruments of the devil!

I am so paranoid now I don't trust any medical personnel. I've got to get past this. Please, please tell me, if three docs, one of them a pelvic floor specialist, tell me that I have no significant prolapse, that that really MEANS I have no significant prolapse!!!! Surely, one of them would have felt something, wouldn't they???

I'm just so worn down with all this, I feel like I never will feel normal again. My whole world has revolved around the state of my crotch from the time I wake up until the time I go to sleep. I'm obsessed with it. I think I had just talked myself into believing my whole belly full of organs was falling out.

The up side is, hopefully this will go away at some point, and I now have the knowledge I need to prevent any further pelvic floor damage. I'm so glad I found this site when I did.

As crazy as it sounds, please tell me that if three docs told you that you had no significant prolapse, you would believe them.

Emily

stella

February 7, 2008 - 6:06pm

I would believe them! Why not? Sounds like your pain is from an infection and when that clears up you will probably have much relief. Congratulations. Make sure to take probiotics during AND AFTER you finish the antibiotics. EXPECT to feel better.

granolamom

February 7, 2008 - 7:44pm

if three docs concurred that you don't have any significant prolapse, and your only symptom is consistent with post-catheterization urethral irritation, then go ahead and believe them!
hopefully its just one of those things that has to run its course, though I'm sure there are some things you can do to help your body heal (as mentioned probiotics to prevent yeast, and maybe vit.E?? just guessing...). and along the way you've learned how to prevent a prolapse.
do let us know when you're feeling better so we can all do the happy-happy dance along with you :)

MeMyselfAndI

February 8, 2008 - 1:34am

Yes - I would believe them.

I would be so grateful and I would move on with my life in the posture knowing that I have really been able to understand a problem before I am marred by it...

I would be that 100% of us women here would lobe tobe where you are now and to be able to get into posture and protect ourselves before something like this would happen...

Forewarned is forearmed as they say and Knowledge is POWER.

You are now ahead of the game

:-)

Sue

Look into the eyes - They hold the key...
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ATS

February 8, 2008 - 4:31am

To me "no significant prolapse" means that what you have is so mild that it is almost undetectable. I would say that if you continue with Christine's work then hopefully your "weak area" will either improve or become no worse. Your symptoms at the moment seem to point to your uretral syndrome and hopefully once that is treated your "normal" will return. You have now been armed with the information you need to protect your body.

I know the feeling of obsession about your crotch, we have another crotch obsesser here! I suppose its a bit like having pain anywhere else, you focus on it and it affects your whole day. Your organs are not falling out and they are right where they are supposed to be so try and relax.

Do let us know how you are getting on and if you get to the bottom or your urethral troubles.

Best wishes,

Anita

MeMyselfAndI

February 8, 2008 - 4:43am

Crotch obsessor?

lol

I don't see anyone?

Sue

Look into the eyes - They hold the key...
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ATS

February 8, 2008 - 4:52am

I wonder!

:o)

MeMyselfAndI

February 8, 2008 - 4:54am

Not me????????

Sue

Look into the eyes - They hold the key...
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mytfly2day

February 8, 2008 - 9:04am

Thank you so much. I know you know what I mean by that crazy feeling; I've been in situations like that before where I've said, wait a minute - am I the one who's crazy here or am I the only one who's sane??? Mostly, I'm the crazy one. @:O

I'd be interested to know what probiotics ya'll use. I've been taking an acidophilus supplement for several months now and I have not had one yeast infection since I started them. I was glad to have discovered this particular one, I think they're called acidophilus "Perles." They are these teeny tiny little sort of gel pills, very easy to take. I've run into the problem of a whole lot of vitamin supplements being horse pills that I literally cannot swallow. Are there other things than acidophilus that are good to take?

So, I'm trying to pick myself up, dust myself off and get a better frame of mind. I've been so depressed ever since the D&C because the problems have been going on that long. Again, I feel it's such a blessing to have found this place because I can tell you, my ob/gyn (whom I really love) has got me on a fast track for a hysterectomy. Before, I was thinking, might as well just get all that out and not have to fool with it anymore. I figured that getting the uterus out would actually HELP with any type of prolapse - that it would take some weight off the pelvic floor. Now I know that exactly the opposite is true! And I know my doc would not tell me about the risk of prolapse and other problems after a hysterectomy. I'm going to fight it as hard as I can.

I've gotten so interested in everyone and in the information on the board that I still want to be here. I certainly want my "weak area" not to get worse and I'm sure I can continue to gain knowledge here, and I am interested in everyone and their particular situations. I've got to beat this constipation thing and if I had not found this site I wouldn't know what was going on. I have absolutely avoided any straining and have been trying to up the fiber in my diet. I know the posture and exercise also play in but I've been too scared to stand up long enough to do any exercise. Maybe I can add that in now. And am also thinking about getting back into yoga. I haven't done it for years and I used to really enjoy it.

I guess if all of you would believe the docs, then I just have to get into that mindset. I've been so convinced that everything was falling out it's kind of hard not to be creeping around, avoiding any kind of physical stress. I've even gotten to the point where I was afraid to go grocery shopping - on my feet too long.

Thank you so much for your input and just want you to know I do care about each of you and am concerned about you.

Emily

ATS

February 8, 2008 - 10:30am

Such a lovely post. Please stick around and keep us informed of how you are.

Acidophilus is something my mum takes when she has an upset stomach and she swears by it. I've never tried it myself. I do know what you mean about the "horse pills", my flaxseed oil capsules are HUGE and I always worry that one will get stuck one day.

As for the creeping around and avoiding standing for too long, I was the same when I first arrived here. I was literally terrified to move but life does go on and you have to keep going and as you know now doing the right sort of exercise helps with prolapse issues. I do the DVD and walking and some firebreathing but haven't ventured into anything else as I am still a bit scared.

Anita

nikki4444

February 8, 2008 - 10:47pm

YES! Believe them! They see lots and lots and lots of crotches. This is GREAT news.

Like all others said...you now have the power to prevent. Wow! What an amazing gift. Since you know how scary prolapse can be no doubt you (like most of us here) will go around preaching caution and posture and such to every walking woman.

I'm SO VERY happy for you. Yes - a victory!
-Nikki