Getting discouraged

Body: 

Hi again, ladies! I am having a "down" day. I am now 11 weeks post-partum and I can't say that I have seen much improvement in my cystocele. It looks SO MUCH better in the mornings, but by noon it is back to the bulge. Ugh. I am starting to think it is permenant.

I don't really have any questions, just feeling sorry for myself today.

Thanks for listening.

Bridgette

11 weeks pp was not a good time for me at all. my prolapse was the worst its ever been at around 12 weeks. 11 weeks pp is really not the time to predict what will be by the time your little one's first birthday rolls around.
my mw told me that there's lots of hormomal changes happening around 12 weeks, that so many of her new moms get into a 'depressive type funk' then, and start to develop new aches and pains. the adrenaline from the birth has worn off and chronic fatigue has set in.
trust me, we all have down days. but they pass. now at 13 mo pp I am simply amazed that my prolapse is smaller than it was before I got pg.
I know it feels like it will never change, but don't give up yet.

Thank you for your kind words. I get so excited in the mornings b/c it really looks like it's improving, and then by noon it looks the same as it did on Day 1. I need to stop looking at it, I know! LOL! I just wish I could see ANY improvement. At least I would feel like there was a light at the end of the tunnel!

but how does it feel? do you feel well in the morning and then by noon feel bad and so you check and sure enough your prolapse is bulging? or do you just check as a matter of course and then get freaked out?
just wondering because I have noticed that sometimes when I feel bad there is no visible bulge and other times when I feel fine I can see the bulge plain as day- but it has taken me a lot of time to figure this out- and checking all the time really didn't help because I would feel bad after seeing the bulge even when I felt good right before I looked....kwim?

sometimes I'd feel so good I'd check, hoping to see major improvement. and when it looked the same or worse, oh boy, did that ruin my day.
life definitely started getting better when I stopped checking.