Fragility

Body: 

Hi Ladies --

I am now 6 weeks postpartum and am feeling pretty good. Usually no symptoms from the cystocele, except that I know that it -- the bulge -- is there. But I feel fragile. I feel that I have to watch every little thing I do so that I don't make things worse. I worry about it all several times a day -- but am doing okay by not letting it consume me like it was a few weeks ago. Many of you who have offered encouragement and said that things heal, does the feeling of fragility ever go away -- or are you all watchful and careful?

I guess part of me has come to terms with the fact that it most likely will always be there, but psychologically I don't want to feel fragile or weak. I was thinking today that I want to feel whole again, guess I found the right website :)

right now, at 6 weeks pp, you have to pay close attention to yourself. you just carried and birthed a baby, which only speaks to your body's strength. but even strong people are at times in a healing mode, which is where you are right now. the 6-week thing is a myth, it takes longer than that to recover from pg and childbirth.

I will speak for myself here, I felt fragile too when I first found my prolapse. its not a good feeling, that's for sure.
but in time I felt strong, stronger than I did before because I knew that I had stabilized the prolapse and even reversed it somewhat. strong enough to KNOW that I could have another baby. no way I would have chosen to do that if I were still feeling fragile. so in my case, yes, that feeling went away.
and I am not always watchful and careful. I mean, the posture has become second nature to me, even when I'm lifting or running or doing whatever, but sometimes I just do what I want even if it means getting out of posture for a bit. I know that if things feel worse afterwards I can easily bring it all back to baseline by spending a few days doubling up on firebreathing or nauli or plies. no biggie.

Granolamom -- You are a great example. Of course you didn't feel too fragile if you are having another baby! Thank you for your thoughts. In time I hope to gain more confidence in my ability to re-stabilize after a bad day or so. I'm going to wait a few more weeks to try nauli or firebreathing, but I'm looking forward to it.

Hi Mamato2boys

What Granolamom says is true. It just takes time. I think you will find that your whole being at the moment is focussed on your babies. That is the way you were designed, to ensure that your babies survive. As your baby gets older, and your focus shifts outward again, bit by bit, your body will show you how it can recover, you will be learning what it can do again. The more times it recovers, and the more times it shows you that you can do things, the more confidence you will regain in it.

Baby steps. Don't hurry it.

Louise