I'm back : )

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hi everyone, I'm back from our holiday overseas and I see you gals have been quite chatty. Silly me thought I'd be able to catch up on all the posts but now I see that there is no way I can do that and run my household!
I hope I didnt miss anything (congratulations, alemama!!!) and will try to read up when I have a chance.
glad to be back! (and btw, two 12 hr flights plus two 3 hr rides in a very bumpy van, lots and lots of carrying kids and luggage, sleeping in very bad beds - when we slept that is- and NO POP problems. how's that for a successful vacation!)

Welcome back, Gmom! We missed you!

Liv

Welcome back!!!!

And wow, thanks so much for the wonderful encouragement of hearing that through all that you had no POP symptoms! I truly needed to hear it!

As a few friends checked in with me today I corrected myself when I started to write that I would not be able to do the things I love for the rest of my life! I know better than to speak bad on myself - but also thought - wait if I REALLY believe I can get better I will not be saying such things that are so negative!

I am praying for a miracle. I DO feel better. My period yesterday and today so THIS is interesting!!! lol My POP is Stage 2 (my doctor said stage 3 incorrectly. I felt like, o come on, learn the stages! but i didn't correct her. another time).

I am really between a 2 and a 1 because it is def going back up since I have been laying down for almost three weeks now! i walk slightly around the house to stretch a bit, and stand for a little while, but back down to resting. The aches have gone away with all this rest. I feel refreshed.

I just have that one pain left (low on the pain scale for those of you who say it can't be pain)..and when i looked in the theater recently at some parts that I looked away from not to be scared and grossed out , I saw the diagram of the muscles, fascia, ligaments, organs and immediately recognized wait, that round ligament! that is EXACTLY where my pain is if I had to draw it!

I feel that it needs to heal, or was torn, or is repairing itself (i read that when ligaments heal themselves they self-tear more before reorganizing and rebuilding and it hurts). That is layman's terms, so please don't go by my description as I am too new to be any authority and am only saying what things feel and look like to me.

Hearing one of you talk about the chiropractor manipulation or whoever it was who did it - that somehow speaks to me, odd as it sounds. It feels like with a little manipulation I'd be fine. No that feeling when your finger gets bent out of place? Or an eye lid gets inverted? lol Or when a spasm has a toe go at a weird angle involuntarily. Or a nail gets backwards for a sec? It's THAT kind of weird feeling. Like something could be popped back inside me!

Not in V-land. It feels slightly to the left, and inside running down into my large lip there and then kind of dissipating out in the mons area. It starts like left, lower by Nicki but not her. It's pain in a line. Just like that ligament is drawn.

Odd, I know, but that's the sensation.

Told my dr of course, but she shrugged.

For now I will be glad for the progress. I am going to wait until my period's done to go back for the pessary, to learn how to put it in. so that way my period will hopefully be over though ya never know as mine's a full week normally. Amazing how long it's taking me to get my pessary, but i am realizing everything has its purpose so trying to be open to the possiblity that it is happening like this because maybe i need to heal before the pressary insertion, or that i won't need one after all, or that this weight loss is better done before i try the pessary. who knows. : )

hope y'all are well! and not too od'd on wedding reruns! hee-hee