New directions for me

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Hey, Ladies,

Well, I went through some tough time lately. TTC is not working. My psychoterapist says I am just not ready and deep inside my mind I know it. I am not ready to have another baby (I have 3 if you don't know me well).

I also have this condition called PKD (policystic kidney disease), and my nephrologist keeps saying that I should not risk my kidneys with another pregnancy. I have also read the papers and articles about PKD and pregnancy, so I tend to agree, but it is so hard...

Anyways, hubby and I decided to just stop TTC. I will continue charting, I like this NFP method, it makes me feel very wise. We won't do birth control, just fertility awareness.

My kids are in kindergarten (will not explain the details, the system is very different here than in the US or UK, schools are excellent and for free), and they love it. So I decided to go back to work, not full time, just 75%. I am in the pathology residency program, will be a clinical pathologist, I have 3 years left from my training. I also teach pathology for 3rd year medical students in Hungarian, English and German (histology basics and autopsy). My job is kinda cool and exciting!

So, I guess I will have less time to spend here. I will never leave the forums, because I just love it, the wisdom here, the acceptance and help you ladies gave me. Will try to keep up with everything here.

So, it is not a goodbye, rather some new directions. Just wanted to share.

Liv

These new plans

Oh oh oh. What a crazy life it is. Will you simply *stop ttc* or are you planning a more *strictly preventing* approach? I have been grappling with the idea of growing my family up and I have a range of emotions about it, but there is a sweetness when I think of being 'done'. Whew, time for myself maybe?
Sounds like you will really get to focus intensely on your training and teaching others- how wonderful that sounds to me!
Glad you will still be here! I love seeing you around :)
here's to new directions in life. Congratulations!
off to read about PKD....

Oh Liv...what sweet, poignant news. Your life has always seemed amazingly beautiful to me - and now this exciting transition. First of all, thank you with all my heart for the time, wisdom and compassion you've given us all these years! Not many members know you are essentially a doctor and that your comments and support are deeply informed.

I know the seven of us will always stay connected. Hey, it's likely we will have an Hungarian WW teacher or two someday and I will get to come visit. For now, I wish you all the best in the months and years to come.

Love from Christine

Thank you both! :)

Alemama, I think I'll charting to avoid, but no more.

Chrisitne, that would be awesome! :D

Liv

What interesting news! Excited for your educational journey (always knew you were a smart one!), and so very thankful for your wonderful words here. As I like to say of transitions/the future/life -- the best is yet to come. Truly!

Hi Liv

Hope you still call back occasionally. Thanks for your wisdom, and good luck with this new, exciting stage of your life.

I am just quietly smiling away to myself about you stopping TTC. Don't make too many long term plans. The best laid plans of mice and men ...

Louise

you'll always *be* here, you've helped create what WW has become
and I know you'll be back now and then to say hello

the 'giving up ttc' thing is often not an easy decision to make, even if its the right decision. I'm *done* and experiencing that sweet feeling alemama was referring to, very much ready to move on to the 'big kid' stage and reclaim my body. thinking I need a belly piercing or something, but dont want to mess with the fascia, lol.
sounds like you have a very full life, enjoy it and do pop in when you have a moment.
we will miss you!!!

Thank you all! I feel loved! :)

Liv

I tease that when I'm done nursing I'm gonna pierce my nipples. I doubt I'll even feel the needle :) these thing have endured much greater torture from teething babes.

I had had my tongue pierced. Loved it! Well, who knows, maybe I should do it again. lol

Liv

LOL! That's called burning your bridges, but don't count on it for contraception!