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Have you tried to take a clean thumb and reach it into your vagina, and feel the back wall of it for any "lumps"? Guide them out like that. I know it's unpleasant, but it will usually help out. The only time it doesn't help for me is if the stool is way too soft.

I have IBS too. For awhile, I was having terrible problems going ( very soft but pasty and not easy to get out, it was always "stuck") absolutely miserable. I had colonoscopy, endoscopy, lots of blood tests, etc. All they told me was to have more fiber. Well, for me that wasn't it, more fiber made the soft pasty stools worse.

I have gone strictly gluten free, I take a strong probiotic pill everyday, I take 2,000 Vitamin D (probably helping my bowels heal) everyday, I eat greek yogurt every morning, I also take 1 Valerian Root capsule(I think it relaxes my nerves in there) every afternoon.

It took a little while, but about 95% of the time, I have a complete bowel movement, nothing stuck! And, no coffee in the morning, I have one in the afternoon. I'm so much better.

I will tell you that I think almost every woman who has the "stuck" unfinished feeling, will feel panicked!!!!! I still do, because you know that for the whole rest of the day that you have that to deal with. It's awful beyond words!!!! The only thing that helps me through the panic is knowing that it will go away eventually. When my bowels were all soft, stuck and pasty, I would feel pain too. I think because it puts a lot of pressure on your lower bowels, everything inside there hurts. I even had an ultrasound of my kidneys because I thought maybe it was that!!!

Of all of the things I do, I think that taking the 2,000 of the Vitamin D has helped the most. I think getting fiber from vegetables as opposed to grains helps a lot too. My IBS doesn't handle grains well, so I avoid them.

I've been down your road Ivonush, and I know EXACTLY how you feel. I was "dependent" on suppositories for a very long time. It was actually Louise from this forum who convinced me I could break the habit and I have. (God Bless you Louise, you saved my sanity!) For at least a year now, I've only used them occasionally, when I get really off my schedule and need to go somewhere for the whole day. I save them for emergencies only. I have a few suggestions the might help you:
1. Relax! You body wants to get rid of the waste too. You just have to trust that it will do that in it's own sweet time. The biggest thing I learned through this whole prolapse process is to be kind to my body and not force it. I NEVER go all the way in the morning. (Most people don't) It's perfectly normal to do two or three bowel movements a day. That's your body's natural rhythm. Yoga is a wonderful way to start the day, it massages your digestive system and gets you calm in your head at the same time.
2. Squatting: I use a small stainless basin to do my business, and it has helped a lot. There is lots of info on the internet about this technique. It is the natural position your body was meant to evacuate in.
3. Magnesium: I take between 400-600 mgs. every night before bed. It helps me relax and get a good night's sleep, plus eases your bm in the morning.

Chin up, you can figure this out. Just tell yourself it might take some time and experimentation.

hi Ivonush,

I can share that since having my uterus prolapse in August, the only times my bowels have emptied all the way are about 3 times when I gave in to the panic of wanting to be empty and decided 'to heck with it' and strained.

each time I regretted it SO much because my uterus dropped down a few inches and the ligament/s in my lower abdomen really hurt.

for me, having my uterus be so far down is more upsetting than knowing my rectum is not empty all the way.
so I have stopped straining altogether.

this means that there is always something in my rectum. it's never empty all the way.
I am learning to be calm about this. I use alternative modalities to help calm me - EFT, homeopathy, energy medicine - and it is helping.

I hope that you may be able to find a way to be calm with this. it's okay for there to be poo left in the rectum. even though it doesn't feel good.
I realise you have the added issue of pain rather than 'discomfort' so I understand how you could feel so anxious about it.

do you take magnesium? if so, how much and how often?

I'm finding that sometimes, if I take it not just before bed but also in the middle of the day, I am sometimes able to have a second bowel movement. otherwise I rarely do and it feels so gross feeling the rectum be full but not being able to empty it.

magnesium needs to be taken at a different time than other meds or supplements because it interferes with absorption.

before the uterine prolapse, I had major bowel problems - alternating diarrhea and constipation and extensive food sensitivities so I can relate to your journey.
the fact that your morning feces is not pellets but afternoon is makes me wonder if there is something you eat only at a certain time of day so that it's ending up in the bowel by afternoon. perhaps you react to that thing.

if you have 1 food you are fine with, a few days of experimentation of maybe eating just it could help you discover if the time of day pellets are related to a food. you could talk with your naturopath/doctor and see if they think that would work. I'm not trained - this is just an idea based on my own sensitivities so please try at your own risk :)

thinking of you and wishing for calm :-)

For me, the stool needs to be very soft in order to move through my system, so I try to keep it that way by being careful of what I eat through the day, making sure I have at least 3 servings of veggies/fruit, plenty of water or herbal tea, and taking my magnesium every night before bed. Again, you will need to play around and find what works best for your system. When I get backed up on some days, I have a few aces up my sleeve to get things moving again: A strong cup of coffee, a couple thousand milligrams of vitamin C, a nice big apple, and if that doesn't do it, I take another 400 mg capsule of magnesium. One or all of those 4 things usually works great. Once in a blue moon, it doesn't do the trick and I have to wait until the next morning when everything seems to "kick in". Play around with what works for you and don't beat yourself up over the suppositories. As you find other things that work, you will slowly start to wean yourself off of them.

Put 'Lopo' into the search box. It is about doing half-squats during and in between bowel motions to try and straighten out the kink in the pipe. Also, try firebreathing and nauli, to try and suck your pelvic organs further inside your body and into a more normal configuration.

... and see what you can find out. Then report back, so we all know. That might be helpful both for you, and for others.

The story continues to be written, each day, with each post.

Louise

Yes, these are the things you need to consider. Check out the actions of the active ingredients.
Also, ensure that your naturopath knows everything you are taking.

L

Dealing with struggles here myself. I wanted to say that when you wrote that you 'wanted to learn' I got tears in my eyes. Wanting is half way there; spend time in quiet willingness to learn and you'll begin to experience change. I'm going back to quiet meditation myself to re-find my own comfort over the panic. Thank goodness this is all a new way of life, because my old way isn't working!!

yes, I too, experience panice when I can't seem to go. Like today. The advice to relax really resonates with me as I know that the more uptight about it I get, the more I can't seem to go. Oh, it's all so challenging. Thanks for the tip about the magnesium. I will try that. Thank you also for the honesty I am witnessing here. I've only really been able to talk to this with my partner and my parents and sisters. It can feel so lonely, like I'm the only one in the world suffering so. It helps to hear that my body will let it go. Sometimes I am so afraid that it won't and I'll end up in the emergency room. It's good to be reminded to trust in my body. And instead of panicking, to simply breathe.

oops! sorry about the multiple posts...my computer was going a bit nuts today.

All the panicking has gone now! That is a very persistent Save button you have there! ;-)