What I have learnt about myself and my life....

Submitted by nicola on August 6, 2006 - 6:55am
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Hi,

Just felt like saying something I was the one pregnant at 13 weeks pregnant and found I had a prolaspe which has now gone as now 20 weeks, it has totally overshadowed my pregnancy and I have thought about it everyday. Even though I feel great now, however I still feel as though I am living with it. My doctor does not seemed to be concerned and believes everything will be o.k. after the birth, which I am still planning on having a natural birth. I have my doubts and believe I will still have problems, but here are my thoughts on the matter, need to share, as most on this site feel nobody understands ( ie friends family etc.)......

1. I am glad I have learnt so much about myself and having to live with a prolaspe if it comes back after birth, It would have been a shock to discover like others, after having a baby and coping with newborn and a prolaspe for the first time. At least I have done my homework and will no my options. (This is my second and last only want 2 bubs)

2. I am glad I will make changes about the way I do things, posture etc. whether prolaspe comes back or not.

3. I have also not been so fond of my below bits, never that comfortable with myself especially sexually, now I love who I am and prolaspe or no prolaspe I love my whole body, no my sex life is already better. '

4. I feel strong for what I have been through and how I have handled it. I am looking forward to taking control of the birth and my life in all aspects instead of taking the norm.

5. To think a prolaspe of two weeks has taught me so much, maybe it all happens for a reason.

I do not know what my future will hold and are still scared of what will happen after this birth, but I feel good in knowing that I am not alone and I will be o.k., I know I feel so good now cause prolaspe is gone, just trying to maintain a postive attitude to cope. Just wanted to let this out.. Thanks this is wonderful site. (Must be on a pregnancy high, but I have been feeling like this for a few weeks now - Nicola

Christine

August 7, 2006 - 11:00pm

Nicola, this is just wonderful. It could really stand as the Whole Woman Credo. Thank you very much for sharing your insights and please know that so many of us have grown in all the ways you mentioned through these experiences. In my own case, the love and gratitude for all I was given at birth might never have manifested had it not been for this work. You are wise beyond your years.