A little reassurance

Body: 

I am in a constant struggle with my body. Lately doing a metal detox and experiencing fatigue etc. blah blah blah. But I have gone back to being gluten free, cutback and virtually eliminated sugars (except fruits) and hardly eat meat - mostly fish and poultry and rarely do cheeses anymore or milk. I feel like I'm afraid to eat anything. I'm already too thin. I'm feeling so sad and defeated. My prolapse seems worse to me and I just don't understand what else I can do. I do the best i can for the posture work and even acknowledge the emotional aspect of my physical issues. I'm just at my wits end. I don't even want to wake up most days to my body. Any loving words or bit of encouragement or objective ideas would be welcomed and appreciated.
Ang

I am not sure how much I can help you ang411 except to say that many of us go through that sad/defeated phase but things do seem to get better. I was quite discouraged with my prolapse until I got a V2 supporter about a month ago. (A lovely lady on this site suggested I try it.)

It is making my life a lot easier as I no longer feel the pull and tug on the huge bulge; the support keeps it more or less in place...not all the way in but at least I don't feel as if it is going to fall completely out. I also don't have the constant urge to use the toilet. I feel so passionate about it that I should be a V2 rep! :)

Do your best not to be discouraged, there is likely something out there that will help you, you just have to find it.

I am sending hugs and good thoughts to you.

Thank you osmari. I appreciate it. I know I'm not unique just wondering if I can live this way. I'm only 42. I can't imagine another 40 years of this and I suppose I need to just live in the moment. I will check out the v2. Thanks again.

You are welcome Ang411. Should you get the V2 supporter, don't get discouraged immediately if it does not seem to fit. It took a couple of days to adjust the straps so I was comfortable. If you are fortunate to be able to find one in your town, go try it. I had to order and the first one was too small even though the size matched my pant size so I had to buy another. Fembrace is another support you might want to check out. I have both. They "work" best if you put them on first thing in the morning before the bulge is out too far; however, I bend forward and gently push the bulge in if it is protruding too far out.

Sometimes, with our health, we have no choice but to live with what we have. I really hope you find something to help you. I have been living with prolapse for about 8 years. I forgot to ask you, do you have a pessary? If you do, I don't know if the supports should be worn with a pessary. I had one for about 2 years but it did damage so I have been without for almost a year and prefer the supports. I wish I would have known about them years ago.

Osmari I am not bulging out so far. I am hoping it will maintain this way. The v2 is for external support then? I'm afraid to use a pessary for the reason you've mentioned. I find that I walk so awkwardly in my effort to keep the posture but feel like I'm going to slip out. Sometimes I feel like my legs are just going to give out - my back is tired and bladder is stressed. Again I know this isn't unique. I'm just exhausted and not sure what I'm doing wrong that it is so persistent. But I must be doing something wrong. I very much appreciate your help and support. I needed it. I don't know anybody personally with similar issues so it's hard to relate on that topic with others. Sometimes I think it's more psychological but I'm so sick of trying to figure things out. I appreciate you "listening"
I hope to find some peace with it.
Thank you so much
Ang411

Ang, I think that maybe you should look into getting some posture help. By this time it should be feeling very natural and normal. It should feel good and give you confidence. It is quite possible to live with the bulge; that's what most of us are doing. I still feel my prolapse virtually all the time, but it doesn't bother me in the slightest because posture makes everything feel stable. If you are not literally bulging out to the point where you are considering support garments, then what you have is a manageable prolapse that should be maintainable with posture and good habits. Do you have a practitioner near you? - Surviving

I might. I will look into it. I was feeling very confident with the posture until recently. I've had fatigue and aches. I have high zinc levels for some reason and I'm wondering if the toxicity is effecting my bladder. I find that it seems worse than before and my habits have been for the better. I like the idea of seeing a practitioner. Hadn't even thought of it ... Thank you. And yes I agree it should be very manageable and seemed like it was which is why I'm feeling a bit confused and overwhelmed. I'm not sure what has set me back and made it worse. Typically sugar is my kryptonite. But I've really cleaned that up. Thanks again ~

Ang, there is a huge component to prolapse management that is mental. It's attitude, and I would go so far as to say, visualization. It starts with nailing the posture, of course, and once you have accomplished that physical transformation it is not hard to picture yourself as that four-legged animal with your pelvic "floor" at the back and those organs supported forward. Even though you feel a bulge, you know that it is being supported away from the outlet and that is how you go about your day without being obsessed and constantly dragged down by fear.

And you need to do the physical work. "Own" this new posture, whatever it takes. I do a lot of jiggling and firebreathing too. Visualize those organs in the belly.

Lately I have been straining somewhat in the bathroom, and it shows in the fluctuation of my symptoms. This only proves to me that I have quite a lot of control over this.

I too am trying to clean up my diet, starting with sugar. I'm not doing very well so far.....it goes in spurts and I haven't broken the addiction yet! But every small success is important. Do not be so hard on yourself. Concentrate on this posture. it will "click" and when this happens, other things may fall into place for you. Sending lots of love and good wishes for you - Surviving

Where can I purchase a v2? Feeling desperate.

If you live in the U.S. try www.amazon.com as the price is very good, if in Canada www.amazon.ca. If you live elsewhere, google V2 supporter and your city or try to find a medical supply store. I had to do a lot of searching to get mine. The prices vary so you might want to check a few places and ask if you can return if the size is wrong. You can also ask for a price match.

You will likely find photos of a pregnant woman, but read on as it is also for prolapse. I find I can relax my belly and bottom while wearing it whereas before I was always stressed.

Good luck.

To answer your question if the V2 is only for prolapse that bulges out, the answer is no. If you google, you will find several reasons for wearing it, including pregnancy. I am not saying it will definitely help you but it might.

I agree with surviving, perhaps if you are able, get in touch with a Whole Woman practitioner for help on posture. You might have to remind yourself to relax and not stiffen the neck, shoulder and back areas. I had a sore neck when I first started on posture. I was able to locate a practitioner for help with certain exercises that I was doing incorrectly. She also gave me tips on how to bend while doing housework etc.

In case you forgot, there is a list of practitioners on the home page of this site.

None of this is easy but very worthwhile.

Hugs to you, Ang411

Thanks again for the good advice. It is very mental. I have a very frustrating relationship with my body. Mind over matter is difficult for me as I am extremely sensitive and feel everything. The sugar is so engrained in my body I kid myself every now and then and indulge and just about ALWAYS pay for it. It's strange though and maddening when I'm not eating sugar and still feel the bulge and that tired weak feeling in my hips waste legs and bladder region. I appreciate you sharing. I've also notice my bowels are more a part of this than I realized initially. Glad for this forum. I've recently thought I'd like to become a practitioner so I guess I better really figure this out. Hopefully it will all click as you say. People must look on and think one strange bird the way I walk and move my leg out to the side to readjust my innards. Thanks for the love.

Ang

Thanks for clarifying and I agree I will benefit from seeing somebody. I think I'm nailing it them I'm not ... maybe there is something important I'm overlooking. Must be. I appreciate you sharing your experience. And especially for the hugs and support. Thanks again.
Ang