My Story

I can't perhaps offer much in the way of understanding - it sounds like life has dealt you a pretty awful hand and this new set of challenges must seem like a massive cosmic joke at your expense...I totally 'get' the feelings of depression and despair surrounding pop though and have myself had many many days and nights of getting stuck in negative thought cycles and all the "how can i live like this?", "why me?" traps... It's very hard sometimes...
When I first came here at about 3 months pp, I was suffering constant rental pressure and horrible bowel urges that led to nothing. It was unbearable and I was desperate and wondering how on earth I could return to work like that let alone live happily...I'm now 7 months pp and for the most part these feelings have gone. I still have achey days and frequently feel my prolapses but have to keep hoping that if the other symptoms could improve, then so can these. Staying positive is tough but as gr8fl reminded me recently when I was having a massive wobble, I can't let my prolapses rob me of the joy of having a beautiful baby and try every day to find a reason to be thankful.
When I am having a panicky symptomatic day, I listen to my hypnosis for healing audio track, have a glass of wine, distract myself by forcing myself to DO something that won't allow me to dwell on feeling crap. Easier said than done I know but this is a constant battle of pick yourself up, dust yourself down and keep going and as my mum always reminds me, my body produced two perfect children, that was what it was meant to do and I am not broken beyond repair.
On a practical note, have you read posts on acupuncture for bladder urges? Many people seem to have had success with this as with cutting out refined sugar. Apologies if you have already explored these avenues. I've read so many posts where this symptom does subside and am sure this will happen for you too. Don't lose hope.
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I would venture to guess that the tall, proud Whole Woman way of standing and moving is probably the opposite of how you have carried yourself through life so far. It is a huge change for all of us to realign our bodies and reposition our organs to what nature intended for us. And it is a mental and emotional journey as well as physical.

I can't put myself in your place, you have quite a story to tell. But you are still young and healing, and you can get those wayward organs to a better place, if you just keep working, and lose that fear and dread that is holding you back. To have fought your way through everything to get to this point, what will you do now? This prolapse is not a "tragedy". Many of us feel it was a huge blessing in disguise because of what we have learned and how much better we are now than ever before. Don't let yourself get stuck in a repeating script of "woe is me". This is something you can turn into good. - Surviving

I just wanted to say how much guts it must have taken to tell that story Wildstrawberry. I like you am, quite sure we carry our past in our body until we release that. This WW work will definitely help to bring awareness to where so much of that pain is caught. I understand wanting to blame yourself for causing your prolapse. Perhaps if it was not prolapse it may have been something else but goodness it sounds like you have done amazingly well with the hand you were dealt.

While labour, constipation and posture definitely contributed to my prolapses so did my past. I carried my anxiety in my pelvic chakra. I still catch myself needing to let go and heal down there but I am almost there. Note I don't mean heal in the sense that my prolapse is gone but heal so that I don't carry negativity or tension there.

All the best, you seem such a lovely strong lady who much surely be on a path for healing energy to be coming your way.

This is my first comment on this forum, though I have been reading for awhile. I just got my DVDs a few days ago, and am anxiously waiting for the back-ordered book to arrive.

I say this from the deepest depths of my heart: Please focus on what Miss Diagnosed said:
" I can't let my prolapses rob me of the joy of having a beautiful baby and try every day to find a reason to be thankful."

My sweet baby girl died during birth this January. She was full term and there were no indications of a problem. Perfectly healthy pregnancy and labor. At the last second, she died. As you well know, life can be cruel, and that cruelty can come on unexpectedly.
While I am dealing with grieving -- and watching my husband and three-year-old grieving too -- I am also dealing with a bladder prolapse.

I do not say these things to imply I have it worse than anyone else. I just say this because I can 100% assure you that no matter whatever awful things have gone on in your life, having prolapse with a baby in your arms is far more preferable to knowing your baby is in a grave.

When I was dealing with postpartum depression along side of my grief and immense frustration about my prolapse and diastasis, I applied some essential oils that helped me lift my mood. I used "Elevation" by Doterra, but I'm sure most other brands have similar oil blends. It really did help me make it through some very difficult weeks/months.

And if you aren't already, get outside and get some sun. It works wonders in helping me clear my head and gain perspective!

I hope you find some peace.

I appreciate your sharing of this story here. I am concerned that Wildstrawberry sees her prolapse as another "dream turned to tragedy". WS, I don't want to hold your choice of words against you, but if prolapse is a tragedy to you at this point in your life, with all you have endured, you might need some help and guidance that are more than we prolapsed forum girls can provide. Might there be some PP depression here? - Surviving

Wildstrawberry,

Your story tugs at my heart strings. While my own experience was not at all the same as yours, I'll just say that my late husband had problems with mental illness (Delusional Disorder) and I know how it feels when one lives with a loved-one suffering from this kind of thing. Then he got Alzheimer too. My heart goes out to you but you're young and hopefully strong, and can overcome. Are you getting any psychological help for yourself right now?

I love how you express yourself, music to my ears :-)

Also, I connect deeply with what you say about allowing yourself to feel what's there and not just pushing past. That's the only way we really get to have it all and it took me four decades to really taste it.

Hoping and dreaming with you,
Snapcracklepop

Thank you WS!

And I'm a pianist too! I've been playing since I was a child and am lucky to be making a living teaching it. Thinking of you!

Dear Wildstrawberry,
Wishing you all the best in your journey to healing,

Music is a wonderful healer, part of the rich fabric of life, and playing an instrument is one step further to connecting with the soul...

Aussie Soul Sister