Pregnant with prolapse

Hi it has recently become apparent that I have some degree (grade 1-2) of prolapse, possible cyst and rect. My lg turned 2 last week and I am 11 weeks pregnant with my second. I feel embarrassed that I didn't realise sooner: my periods returned after 10 months and I had a heavier flow than before and issues keeping tampons in. I thought it was just post baby normality. Then I switched to a menstrual cup - and in some aspects it was amazing and in others it highlighted the issue: when I wore my daughter in the sling/sitting in certain positions it would come right down. Then i investigated - and found something 'extra' which I must say freaked me out. Just to complicate matters I have recently moved to Spain (my husband is Spanish) and I don't have good Spanish yet. I saw a Gp on a trip back to the uk - but pretty quickly I trellised that unless I had a grade 3 she wasn't interested. She examined me (on my back) and said she couldn't feel anything, which I was not surprised at as at that time lying on my back was totally asymptomatic. Just to put into the mix that I am/was a Physiotherapist (albeit not woman's health) and Pilates instructor. Reading Saving The Whole Woman has shaken my understanding (in s good way) to the core (pardon the pun). My brain is so entrenched in what I believed to be true before I don't know how I can continue in my professions until I get my head around the new reality. If I know (now from personal experience) that what I was teaching before was erroneous I cannot continue to teach it. That's fine at the moment as I am not yet able to work in Spain and then will be nurturing my second baby: but what happens after that? I digress though: what presses on my mind is that I learnt so much amazing stuff about natural
Birthing for my first baby that I was ultra relaxed and prepared. I was all set for a home water birth with a doula, but then after 2 weeks post due date I agreed to gentle induction; eventually progressing to breaking of waters/drip etc she came into the world 18 days post due date. I felt empowered in many ways: no pain relief/ gas/air etc BUT after full dilation my request to respect any 'rest and be thankful stage' was overturned and I ended up on my back, 2hrs 10 of pushing with no s actual urge to push followed by a reluctant episiotomy and ventouse. Where I had no fear before this time I'm fearful. I'm scared. Especially being in a different country with a medicalised view of child birth. And with prolapse. I need to get my inner belief of the naturalness of birth back. Any help/advice gratefully received. Apologies for the essay!