just wanted to share this.....

Submitted by shalom on September 26, 2007 - 7:26pm
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my name is Denise and i first posted here about 3 months ago. i was due any day at the time and dealing with what appears to be rectocele and cystocele and i was really afraid all my insides were going to come out during my sons birth. well, he's now 2 months old and everything went well. the birth was my most difficult but everything stayed inside and even seems a little less then when i was pregnant. what i wanted to share was and i hope noone minds me posting this because this isnt a christian website but i am a christian and when i first discovered my prolapse i was freaking out and i really found nothing good nor any encouragement other then this website. i was crying and praying, searching my bible for some promise from Him that i could hold onto but i was pretty sure there was nothing about the walls of the vagina in the bible! the weeks went by and i fely like He wasnt answering my cries and i was like... Lord i really need to hear from you about this and then one day i just- without searching and trying -i opened my bible to isaiah 49: 14 and this was His answer for me. But zion said, the Lord has forsaken me, and the Lord has forgotten me ( which is how i felt) can a woman forget her nursing child and have no compassion on the son of her womb? even these may forget, but i will not forget you. behold i have inscribed you on the palms of My hands, your WALLS are continually before me. now, i know to some that might not mean much but i just started crying because I knew He was talkin about my walls, the walls of my vagina and that He knows all about it and is helping me out. I love how He always teaches me things through me being a mom and how we love our kids and would move heaven and earth to help them. and how one of His names is shaddai and it means the motherness of God and the picture is a nursing mom and He loves us even more than we love our kids and He moves heaven and earth to help us. so i hope it was ok to share that and hopefully someone will find encouragement in it. and i really just want to say thank you for all the encouragment that you share here. im sure there are thousands of women that may never post with these problems searching the web for answers and some hope, i was and i found none... until i found this sight. thanks Denise

AnneH

September 26, 2007 - 8:29pm

On the birth of your son! Probably this website WAS the support God sent to you, like the joke about the man on the roof and God sending rowboats. You however did not reject the rowboat. And the passage told you in no uncertain terms that He indeed is thinking about you and hasn't forgotten you.

I am not a strict Christian but I have a strong spirituality. I understand EXACTLY how you felt when you found that passage. I had a similar experience. A man said some words to me that caused me intense turmoil, grief, and confusion. I decided to consult the Bible. I closed my eyes and opened the Bible to a random page and put my finger down to a random spot. I was going to take whatever passage I landed on as some sort of hint on how to deal with what he had said to me. I opened my eyes and looked down and read the passage my finger was on. To my shock, it was a near verbatim quote of the words that man had spoken to me. It could not have been a coincidence. It was too specific and detailed. Which passage it was is very personal to me and if you don't mind I'd rather not share it. The man wasn't intentionally quoting the Bible, and I had not even heard that passage before. I couldn't have been even subconsciously trying to land on it; I didn't even know it was a Bible passage, much less where it was, much less be able to locate it with my eyes shut. This left me with no doubt that there is a higher power.

alemama

September 27, 2007 - 8:05am

I play the magic Jesus game sometimes-I know it is unorthodox but I couldn't not comment lol.
Congratulations on your new baby and your healing body.

teachingmomofth...

September 27, 2007 - 2:53pm

It sound to me as if you are searching and God is knocking on the door of your heart. I don't beleive there is a "strict" Christian. Either you have accepted Jesus as your savior and serve him or you have not. Believing in God doesn't make you a christian. If you don't know him as your savior, I would love to inroduce you to him.

shalom

September 27, 2007 - 5:39pm

i have been born again and iv been walkin with Jesus for awhile now. but i appreciate the offer sister. Denise

AnneH

September 28, 2007 - 8:46am

She may have been talking to me, since I used the term "strict" Christian. Thank you also, but rest assured I am already VERY acquainted with Him. It's not subtle when you get smacked down on the road to Damascus. What I mean when I say I'm not a "strict" Christian is I don't belong to any particular earthly, man-made, religious institution.