In the spirit of sharing...

Body: 

I took a nature walk today. My brain functions differently when I'm in nature. There is a voice that speaks to me in profound ways. Today, it was my body talking to my spirit. Odd, because I've always thought, or thought I always thought, that the mind/body/spirit were one. Today, my body called to me and brought my attention to focus solely on it. It was like it was telling me that the body is home to the spirit, but not one with the spirit. It was a very strong presence that came to me. I guess it makes sense since I believe the spirit leaves the body upon death. If it can leave, then I guess it must be separate. I guess I just never pondered it quite so seriously. Anyway, I am going to post what it said to me. It doesn't seem like something I should keep to myself.

Christine, you need to guide me as to what is appropriate to share. Like I've said before, I will take no offense. But from what I've learned, from my own experience and reading of the experiences of others, pop strikes at the heart of more than the body. Perhaps, sometime in the future, it would be appropriate to have a forum title that dealt with the spiritual/emotional aspects as well. Of course, that is your call, since you are the mother/heart of Whole Woman.

This is the first forum I've ever contributed to. It takes some courage but it calls to me deeply to share.

Pardon any rough places. I didn't even try to perfect its voice.

My Body Speaks...Please know they're not the whole of me

When you listen, do you hear just my painful cries?
Do you only hear the questions, why?
Do you only dwell in things gone wrong?
Can you only hear the lesser song?

I am so much more than this.
I am home to all your bliss.
I’ve carried you through each day.
Each step you took, I walked the way.

I’ve been with you through everything.
I’ve seen you cry, I’ve heard you sing.
Sometimes I feel you don’t see me.
And, oh, I need for you to see.

When you found love, what did I do?
I welcomed him to join with you.
I let you feel how love should be.
From a pure touch- sweet ecstasy.

I need you now to join with me.
Broken places, yes, they’ll be.
But I am more than what is wrong.
Please look and see how I’m still strong.

Dwell now please in my soft skin.
Decide right now that you’ll begin
To look real close, to really see
All the miraculous parts of me.

Your seeds I nurtured, your babes I birthed.
Those precious gifts of sacred worth.
I opened up, I let them breathe.
And, yes, it took a toll on me.

I know you look and see me changed.
How long should I have stayed the same?
When it’s the lesser things you see,
Please know they’re not the whole of me.

Please know they’re not the whole of me.

Thanks for reading. Love, Kit

thank you for sharing that
I'm not one who usually appreciates poetry, but that had tears running down my cheeks. it really spoke to me too.

Thanks Granolamom...means so much coming from you. Kit

That is a truly lovely poem :-)

Thank you

Sue

Look into the eyes - They hold the key!
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I could not finish reading your poem since my eyes were full of tears...I then read it several more times. How you have touched my heart. Particularly since, as I am turning 59 in 3 weeks, I have sometimes felt that my body has let me down in many, many ways. But your lines .."But I am more than what is wrong. Please look and see how I’m still strong"... that is so true. You are an amazing person - and so wonderful for having shared this with us. My mother died last year on my birthday - she was 87. I remember her telling me a long time ago that she had a uterine suspension, then a hysterectomy, then an operation for a cystocele. She had another cystocele when she died. I never thought to take the time to REALLY talk to her about any of it. And now I am suffering, and I can't talk to her. I miss her so. Thank you again, Kit, you have no idea how your poems and insightfulness have touched me and helped me.
Love, Goldfinch

Thank you, dear Kit, for contributing another beautiful poem.

I would like to post this one permanently as well. I haven't yet because that part of the site is not "content managed", so we have to have a developer do it.

Many, many thanks for all your beautiful and helpful connections.

Christine

Thank you, Sue and Goldfinch and Christine, you are all so kind.

Sue, so sweet of you to take the time to post. I really appreciate it.

Goldfinch, I think of you now each day as we have a goldfinch feeder in our backyard. Thank you for your lovely, and loving post. I feel blessed that you were touched so by my thoughts. It came in such a different way, I was so caught up in feeling my body cry out so, I must confess I didn’t absorb the full impact of what it was saying. After reading your post, I read the lines again and they just dissolved me. I am so glad I relinquished myself to spirit yesterday.

So sorry you lost your mother. But what a grand age she lived to! It sounds like she went through her own trials and I’m sure she would have been a wealth of information and comfort to you at this time. But you know, mothers don’t like to see their dear daughters suffering. I would so much rather go through this than see my daughter struggle with it. Perhaps it is a great blessing that she didn’t have to see your struggle? I know it is not for me to say, but that is what came to my heart as I read your thoughts. And, now, here you are in this place of healing and acceptance. Who knows what powerful forces helped you to find this path... Love, Kit

Christine, thank you for your thoughts, and for letting me participate in this way. Kit

you need to get published.....

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Thanks for sharing lovely Kit. When I think of you and how inspiring you have always been to me when I have read your posts, you are not just Kit but lovely Kit. Your words deeply touched me and I cried and cried. I will now listen to not just my heart and spirit but also make sure I can hear my body. We are truly blessed to have such incredible bodies and I feel truly blessed to have found this forum and to have 'met' such wonderful women as yourself.

Lots of love

Frankie x

Your reply hit me like a wave - I've been thinking about my mother and what a loss it is to me to not have her here...but your're right - SHE has been spared the pain of seeing me suffer from this. And as a mother of a 30 year old, I know how I will do anything to spare MY daughter pain. So I guess it is a blessing that my mom isn't here to see me. Oh thank you - you have helped me look at this in a totally different way, and I feel much better.

I do believe that my mom hears me pray to her, and I know that in any way that she can, she will help me be strong and deal with this as she did. Maybe finding this place of healing and wonderful women was her doing? I want to believe that it was....
Goldfinch

Alemama, thank you so much. Maybe someday, I am open to that now. But there is something really powerful in this anonymous giving, I've gotten so much more back in return. My heart is full. Kit

Frankie, you touched me deeply. What a special kind of heart you have. I'm not often at a loss for words, but ...thank you, Kit

Goldfinch, I truly, truly believe that it was...Kit