Freaked out by how hard POP is. Also POP going way to right side

Submitted by Salt on September 22, 2011 - 10:08am
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hi All,

I'm kind of freaking out a bit today emotionally.

Today is day 28 of my cycle, my period is almost here, and my prolapse is very bad again. last month at this same time is when I first discovered it and it got so much better after my period for a few weeks that I had hoped maybe it was never going to get bad again since I've been doing the posture.
But it's been getting worse and worse over the last week.

I had a difficult bowel movement this morning and ended up straining much harder than I know I should and had sharp pain in my right lower abdomen afterward. I checked my prolapse (uterus) and it was so far down - almost at the opening of my vagina - and pushing entirely to the right of my vagina. Which fit with the rightsided abdominal pain.

I did Firebreathing for a few minutes and as much of Nuali as I've been able to figure out.
then I lay on my left side, checked again and the uterus is not as far to the right as it had been (and not quite as far down either - very cool!)

what is totally freaking me out, if you've made it this far thru my babbling, is how very firm the uterus is! I mean it is HARD. Almost as hard as a bone. not just the cervix but the entire amount I can feel - a number of inches - is really hard. and smooth. not like the normal ridginess and texture of my vagina.
is this normal?

It's so freaky to me because I feel like I have a foreign object inside of me.

Also freaky that it can descend so much. at least 4 inches all of a sudden.

I have a trauma history and am finding this all so triggering.
sorry to ramble on. I think it helps me to have somewhere to share and get it all out. don't have anyone I feel comfortable talking about this level of detail with :)

thank you for 'listening'
Salt

alemama

September 22, 2011 - 10:48am

the uterus is a thick strong muscular organ!
Try elbows and knees too for tipping the uterus back towards the front.
Enema is your best friend. No more straining. That pain you felt was probably ligamental pain.
If you can do elbows and knees for at least 30 min that would be great. Take deep breaths and meditate- drop into child's pose when you get tired- then back up to elbows and knees. Move into cat/cow (on hands and knees) and back to resting elbows and knees.
It will get better for sure. Early days!

Salt

September 22, 2011 - 11:45am

thank you so much alemama
I actually did that elbows and knees intuitively for a bit and it makes me feel better knowing it's actually suggested!
I will go now and do it for half an hour, alternating with child's pose as needed,
should I be doing cat pose often throughout that half an hour do you think?

do you know if an enema with just water can help? I can't use any chemicals, drugs, preservatives etc (severely sensitive)
if water alone is helpful, I'm wondering how much water I should use and if I can boil filtered water, cool it and use that or if I need to buy sterile water

I hope I don't seem pushy or annoying asking all of these questions. I am a person who normally is very self-sufficient and doesn't ask for help so this is a big shift for me.

thank you again for the knees and elbows. it felt good to do and I'm going to go do it for a long time now. :-)

hockeyMom

September 22, 2011 - 11:48am

Hi Salt, I also have a prolapsed uterus, and my cervix can get very low as I get near my period as well. I also found it quite freaky to feel the cervix so firm and longish. No wonder when it was really low I felt like a tampon was out of place, it is so hard and pokey. I now know that around ovulation my cervix does soften and kind of spread out. My uterus goes way off to the left, sometimes more than others. Before my POP I had no idea that these organs moved around so much.

My POP sensations vary quite wildly over the month of my cycle. I kept track of how things felt for a few months, and came to see that I usually feel good after my period, I often feel my POP around ovulation for a few days and then about one week before my period I feel it again. Now that I know this, I no longer freak out when I have a day where it is more bothersome, because I know that it passes and also I know to do things, like the exercises Alemama describes, to make it better on those days.

I have been doing the WW posture and exercises for about a year now. I can say that it has made a big difference. When my uterus starts to feel lowish I find that sitting pulled up strongly in WW posture, or sitting cross-legged in WWP changes the feeling quite quickly now. For me it seems that even a small shift of the uterus/cervix forward makes it feel much better and normal. Good luck, it takes time but it does feel better after awhile.

Salt

September 22, 2011 - 12:09pm

hi hockeymom,

your words 'firm and longish' describe what I feel exactly! I'm relieved to know it's not just me.

and it's really encouraging to hear that even though it regularly gets worse at certain times of your cycle, it still goes back to being better at other times!

there is so much in your reply that relates to what I'm experiencing. I appreciate it so much :) thank you

it's so hopeful to read how quickly you feel shifts now when you do WW stuff if the POP had been feeling low.