Despair

Submitted by ranann on August 19, 2012 - 2:10pm
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I'm 53, last period 15 months ago. I discovered my bladder prolapse about a year ago. At first I was devastated, but immediately found this site, purchased the book and DVD and by following advice there and on the forum was able to manage my condition with little thought. I never needed to post because by reading, I could find my answers.

Until now. Two days ago I had situations in my work (I am a hospice nurse) that contributed to becoming dehydrated. I simply drank very little for about 12 hours. That evening I began having urinary frequency and urgency and moderate pain. So I pushed water, took Tylenol and felt better yesterday. I worked a long day but felt ok. Today, though, I feel constant low pain and pressure and can't stay off the toilet. No burning, just terrible urgency. Again I am pushing fluids, resting, fire breathing, and spending much time on hands and knees. I plan to see an MD for a culture in the a.m. But my feeling is there is no infection, rather that this is because of my prolapse.

I have worked so hard to be upbeat and positive about my prolapse. I do the work, don't dwell on it, and live my life with joy and purpose. But today I feel like weeping about my brokenness that cannot be fixed. Not sure what I'm looking for, perhaps just some empathy and encouragement. Thank you to Christine and all who post here. You have blessed me beyond measure.

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Surviving60

August 19, 2012 - 2:32pm

Hi ranann - so sorry to hear you are experiencing this. Is this the first time you have had a serious setback? Or is it just the biggest one? Because it is normal to have them, and until you do, you may not trust your body to be able to get back to your baseline. But you will! Some women will have a setback and not really have any idea of why it's happening. In your case, you know exactly what triggered it. Just keep going, keep working and it will resolve itself. - Surviving

Nanajoy

August 19, 2012 - 4:33pm

Do you know about Pyridium? It is now over the counter and helps with frequency and urgency with UTI's.The only side effect is it turns your urine a bright orange color but it REALLY helps.It might help you. Good Luck.

Nanajoy

August 19, 2012 - 5:33pm

What you are describing,sounds like a really bad case of bladder spasm.For some reason,I'm a bit prone to it and even though I drink Cranberry juice etc. It will happen once in awhile,maybe twice a year.I keep try to stay as non med as possible,but this condition can come on suddenly and as you are describing,it's terrible.Pyridium is specifically for this type of pain and relieves the bladder spasm.It used to require a prescription.I'm a Nurse-Midwife and always used to write a script for it w/ antibiotics if patients had frequency and urgency.just thought I should explain and not just recommend a medication:).

ranann

August 19, 2012 - 6:30pm

Thank you surviving for your kind words. Thank you nanajoy for the pyridium recommendation. I will send hubby out for some. Many thanks to you both.

MsNightingale

August 19, 2012 - 7:21pm

I just want to say that it sounds to me like you have been a model hero....staying upbeat and positive and not letting prolapse run your life. That can be hard to do. And the work you do is both amazing and demanding. It is okay if you need to weep every once in a while :-) I send you my very best wishes and hope that this set-back will be over before you know it.