Very scared

I will really.

goodness, that's frustrating to say the least!

I'm not sure about the air in the vagina with firebreathing, but maybe if your organs are moving out of the way, that's why air is being sucked in. just a thought.

the breathing, when I finally figured it out seemed to help me significantly. unfortunately I've not been practicing it as of late and am back at square one, meaning I can't for the life of me remember how to describe it! I don't want to mess up and describe it all wrong, maybe someone else can be helpful here??

what is ECS?

a reconstructed perineal body may respond differently than one that hasn't been reconstructed. but keep in mind that so many of us have been through perineal traumas and interventions, each of us while so similar in anatomy, is unique and will respond to this work at our own rate. I know how frustrating it can be to experience set backs when others seem to heal so quickly.

I sincerely hope that this method is not entirely failing you. I hope that you can figure out how to best apply it to your specific anatomy, and at the very least, stabilize the prolapsing organs.

Dearest Reka,

I honestly don't know what to say without sounding like I am patronising you and saying don't worry, everything will be fine, though I deeply hope and pray that it will of course!

You sound like you have been, and are going through so much, first with the tearing and now with this. I am so sorry.

As usual Granolamom makes brilliant points and I think that what you could do at this point is try to first get a diagnosis so that you know exactly what you are dealing with. I know you don't trust your ob/gyn from previous posts, so why not find another one you do like and trust. I for one always feel better knowing exactly what I am dealing with, and often find that it is not as bad as I imagined. For example my recent swelling was a congested gland, not all the other things I was worrying about!

Try to rest as much as possible while continuing with the work. It must feel very discouraging I know, but the work can only support you ultimately, not do any harm, and it means that you are continuing to be proactive.

Considering I hadn't much to say I have done quite well as usual! :) I am thinking of you Reka and so hope that things begin to improve. I understand your fear too. Remember there are several women here who had extensive tearing like yourself and have responded well in the long term to this work!

Take care OK!

Love Michelle. xxx

P.S is ECS elective c- section?

When my bladder joined my rectocele in the "who can take up the most space in the vagina" contest, Granolamom told me that the good news was if/when my uterus joins the party it won't fall out because the cystocele and rectocele will keep it in. At first I felt a pretty sarcastic "oh great" but over the next few days I mulled that one over and it actually is pretty great. what a design. that said. I sat down after reading your post and imagined if my uterus did fall- you want to talk about a full on panic attack? I could have had one. Easily.
This body work, much like any other personal improvement work, sometimes gets worse before it gets better. My bladder came down and I was in misery. but it goes back up. and I can pull it up. and at some point I am pretty sure it will stay up.
What I am trying to say (and not very well) is that the uterus is a mobile organ. Just because it came down this week doesn't mean it will still be down next week.
So what you do when all you have tried doesn't work? take a break from it. And then try again.
I am so so sorry you hurt. Sitting, standing- both things you must do. Hey I read an old post once about comforting herbal steams for the vagina - maybe you can search for that old post. does it hurt when you are on all fours? I know it is silly but that is how I read and play most of the day. I also take breaks during the day and lie down for a little while and breathe.
I had a tear like yours- 4 years ago- and have had 2 babies since then - but it took a whole lot longer than 6 months to feel better. more like an entire year before it didn't hurt to wipe after I peed. give it time. Oh I also do downward dog during the day a lot. that seems to lift my uterus up for a few minutes and if I do it and then do the hands and knees thing it works for a long time.
I wish you could feel pain free.